Insomnium
Insomnium
Año de formación

1997

País de origen

FINLANDIA
ALBUMES / CANCIONES / LETRAS
As I lay dying at the eve of my days
There is a void inside me, hollowed by the years

Time has made these scars, burned them in my soul
Mouldered this ugly figure of anguish and woe

Only death by my side, in the darkness waiting
I weep for what I've done, cry for what I've not

I beg for salvation, that cannot be found
Never in this life, not whit these memories

I have never shown regret or asked for forgiveness
I have never relented, no, or yielded to prayers

Only vision in my mind, as I give my life
How she hides her face, and turn away
Now it's too late
Can't you hear the calling
We are no longer safe
Mankind is falling

Close behind until you see
All is swelling in incorporeality
We are rendering a service,
Inconsequence reigns
Vicious circle completes

What have we become more than
Traitors in the face of time

Disharmony unleashed,
What would satisfy your hunger
For there is no hope,
For there is no meaning

Inanimate spirit outbreaks the silence
Strangles the motion, catches the fire
Reflections define our failures
When everything is said and done

...For there is no hope...
...For there is no meaning
When the days get shorter
And winter draws near
All that once was fair
Withers and dies
Thoughts of despair
Breeding in darkness
Growing from desolation
Decaying my sanity

If I would die away, drown in misery
Choke on these tears, who would mourn me
No one to light the candle, or weep on the grave
If I'd be gone forever, die of this grief

...Forever gone...

Would you kiss me goodbye
And hold me in your arms
If you were here with me
Heading towards the dark

The river runs black
Through these forgotten woods
I kneel down by the water
Wash my stained face
I let the stream take me
Carry away from here
To where I feel nothing
Where no pain can reach me
May the wind rise, and the storm awake
See the sky turn dark, clouds devour the sun
No moon or starlight to guide you in the night
Doomed to wander in dusk, grope in the shades

Time for retribution
Into nothingness I curse you all

I challenge the Almighty, forger of the skies
Above the ancient gods, I control the stars
Sun rests on my shoulders, moon lies on my brows
Over life and death, I have the power

You shall kneel before me, quiver under my anger
For I am your Majesty, Lord of the burning darkness
Those who dread me not, blasphemous deceivers
Fire will be your price, flames serve you right

The universe in my hands
Heavens collide before me
I shatter the constellations
Firmament shall fall down
World perish in flames
As I say one single word
Her dirge still echoes in these woods
Mourning lingers in the vales
As the wind cries on the shore
Her wailing can be heard

Mirthless is this wandering through
Hollow days
Like a pale ghost I waste away in
This foul world

What sin do I atone for in this
Dreadful way
Why the gods sneer at me as I
Keep writhing in pain

Where has my dearest gone to
Where sings now my maiden fair
Beneath the darksome waters
Underneath the moonlit waves

Where is our ill-starred son
Where lies our poor stillborn child
Below the silent mound
In the arms of sacred earth

She became weary of the world
Tired of this marred life
Burdened with sorrow far too deep
The pain impossible to bear

There is no light at the end of this
Blackened path
Calm again are the sullen waters
Before me

If gods shall hearken to me
Fate with be benign
I leave these woes behind
Depart from these cares

For we shall be reunited on the
Other side
I descend to my love and caress her
forevermore
The wind gathers the clouds in the sky
empyrean cracks and roars
the calm before the storm grows now to thunder's song
gone are the singing birds, silently sigh only the trees.
Hear now the moment when the son of thunder speaks

The roar in crescendo, fills hate dark air and once more
The bringer of chaos makes the wind rise again
Watch him whirling, dancing in the step of time...
In the flash of lightning appears the majesty of skies

As the tempest sets world on to it's knees,
Still steady stands one man brave
Challenging alone the nature
Screaming fiercely over the gale

Filled with anger are also phrases of storm
And easily from the ground apart is the man soon torn
Cold is their embrace, of iron their handshake both
Mortal facing undying and the warring of their powers

For thousand years last their struggle,
One teardrop shed for every year,still
Enough to bring forth the thousand lakes,
enough for thousand rivers to shape
and as the north wind rises again
and the heaven cracks and roars
once more two headstrong figures
will test to defeat each others
Where there once was love, only hatred now resides
Where I once had heart, only nothingness now dwells

Guilt-ridden shall be your days
Heart-rending your nights

By starlight I rock to sleep my dearest ones
Under the cold sky I lull to rest my darlings
Good to lie in a bed of cloudberry flowers
Soft to dream on a moss-grown pillow

Betrayed by one I loved, deceived by one I caressed
Cast into the dark, thrust into the endless night

But even bitter is your fate
Way darker your path

For nothing have I been by your side
In vain have i wasted this life
All that was fair has been marred now
All the love I gave you have emptied my heart

Soon I'll be feeling no pain 
sleeping in silent shade
The ones you cherish most
I'll take with me to my dreams

Haunted by your deeds
Wrapped into the grief
You are bound into this sorrow
Until the end of time
As I lay dying at the eve of my days
There is a void inside me, hollowed by the years

Time has made these scars, burned them in my soul
Mouldred this ugly figure of anguish and woe

Only death by my side, in the darkness waiting
I weep for what I've done, cry for what I've not

I beg for salvation, that cannot be found
Never in this life, not with these memories

I have never shown regret or asked for forgiveness
I have never relented, no, or yielded to prayers

Only vision in my mind, as I give my life
How she hides her face, and turns away
In the arms of rimed soil, lies the autumns last withered leaf
Land now bare and naked, awaits it's snowy sheet

And as the light still lingers, painting scarlet this barren scene
An old man sings his song of melancholy and relinquish

I'm a whirl deep in dark waters,
A stare in the shades of fir-trees
I'm riding above with north wind,
Herding the black clouds of rain
Mine is the kingdom, 
Far from the moon to the sun
I am the elder,
Standing forever as one

And in that sudden moment, when everything's turned to still,
He abruptly breaks the silence, becomes one with longing

And singing ever stronger, nature joins as one with him
Fire in his eyes, universe under twisted grin
Somber is my mind, now that
Misfortune has faced my kind;
Weary glazed stare,
Beneath the pitch-black hair.
On my cheeks, once so alive, adorn
Flood of tears, caused by strife
And as I grieve under the sky,
Even raven croaks to me it's despise

My warm hand against your cold
Palm...
Words echoing in the air though
You're gone...

Somber is my mind,
Black is the colour I feel
These completely dead emotions,
Drain the last bit of me
No matter how many tears I've shed,
No matter how much I repent,
Some things just can't be undone
And some of us can't be forgiven.

No matter how many tears I shed,
Some things can't be undone...

I've reached the point of no return,
These are deeds from I can not flee
From a reflection I see a tired man,
Longing for a relief
Black waters in front of me
Will sway me till I'm in sleep,
Take me to the shores of Manala
Where I'll be free from my sins.
Black waters will sway me till I'm sleep...

This roaring stream will wash me
Pure and clean...
...This path leads into dark...

In shrouding veil of thickening dusk,
In the caress of darkening woods
There winds my path, narrow and fading 

Let this twilight linger, long upon me
Moon and stars take over when sun has fled
And bring her scent to me

May the blowing of winds cease
And all birds fall silent from singing
May the dreary waters lay still
And hands of time stop turning

So in forms of evening mist
I can feel her slender grace
In shades of deep green
I can drown in her tender eyes

Now that her light has gone away,
All this searching has led astray,
These turns are filled with grieving, this moments with loss

What a cruel world left for me to roam alone
What a scornful fate, took my light away

Neither the glittering dew on moors, nor the the whispering wind in dales
But only these shadows of green can remind me of her

What a cruel world left for me to roam alone
What a scornful fate, took my light away
The silent moment right before the dusk fades away
I open my eyes but the darkness stays
Night frost covers the brittle flowers around you
I realize that what I dreamt is true

Beauty beyond words
My dearest one
Her light burns my eyes
She is all mine

By these frosty waters I rest by Your side
I hold you in my arms for the last time
If only I could tell you how I need Your love
If only you had seen what I kept in My heart

Now it's the time of grieving
Reign of sorrow in my heart
All i have ever wanted
Is today forever gone
Bitter is the nightly silence
Bitter till the end of time
The sky grown ever darker
Through now she'll always be mine

I hold you in my arms so tight
I kiss your frozen lips for this last time
For the first time
I'm rushing through the cosmos,
Reaching the light from beyond the sun
I see my self dissolving,
As universe locks me into its arms
When you dream of the sea of stars,
And in the sky the northern lights flame
Sometimes do you remember,
Hear the silence between the worlds

Swirling surges of plasma,
Permeate me as I continue my fall
Distorted dimensions swarm around me,
Flickering awhile, soon lost to sight
And all these shapes I've seen
Always through thick darksome mist
Become now clear, vision of consternation and awe

Into soothing silence I lapse,
Under your guarding eyes I rest
At the gates of your kingdom,
I bow down and enter

Domed stellar colonnades outline the arch of the sky
A scene from here to eternity and everything that between lies
The grandeur of all existence, reveals me now past my closed eyes
And as my sleep turns ever deeper, I'm really awaken for the first time
Evening full of grandeur, skies tinged with red
Mountains crowned with crimson, treetops with scarlet blaze
As the dusk is falling, night settles in
Stars slowly come out, moon glides skywards
...Still cheerless is in my soul, my heart filled with cares...

Longing for the misty shores, weather-beaten strands so poor
Where the weeping sky archs over water calm
Pining for primeval woods, murky shade of leafy roof
Where the silent trees arch over our path

Do you walk in mourning, still wear the grief
Raiment of sorrow, remembrance of me
Through the years of bleakness, winters of bitter cold
Will you not forget me, forsake my soul
...Low-spirited is my song, downhearted my tune...

Beyond enchanted sea, wistful is my sleep 
Darkness by my side, through the dreary night
Will you follow me, through eternity
To another world, to the quiet halls

I've lost my way in the dark, strayed apart from my love 
I've faced the demons of might, passed away into shades

Long are lonely years, slowly pass these days
In undying land, in the divine light
Where I wait...in the dark

The black of the night turns to dusk of the dawn
Through the mist now shines the fairest light of all
The caress I've waited for eternity
Into the shades, together we fade

                                                                    
From now on there's an abscence of smile

Foul voices welcome me to loneliness
Graceful tunes on her lips have now ceased
This winter's here to surpass all the hopes
And dreams succumb to nightmares and freezing air

Now lonely is my road, path paved with bitter thoughts
Conception of beauty excluded from this heart
Within closed doors no-one speaks, behind barred windows no soul lives
As I walk the soil beneath my feet is crumbling...

She was my sun and now the light has faded away
Night condensing around me, leading astray
Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades
Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades

Should I be content with the memory of the life I had?
Or is the Hell knowing what we could have beome?
- Quite indifferent as the tides of time have now turned
And the past is buried in a drift of whirling snow

...White sheet covering all things left behind...

And from now on there's an abscence of hope...

She was my sun and now the light has faded away
Night condensing around me, leading astray
Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades
Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades

So be it, perdition is my home,
Since the day it all came down
Trail amidst the snow-clad trees, winding is the way
Sunless is the path we roam, bitter is the air we breathe
Fell is the icy blast, coming from the hills
Blowing through my ailing heart, wailing in the emptiness inside

Vanished is the light we had, hidden deep in rimy soil
Bereft of us the one we cherished, lost for ever our love

Still at night I see her figure
Flickering on moonlit glades
But passing is the hope she_s giving
Just a faintest breath of air and she_s gone again

The clouds are moving heavily, across the livid sky
Yonder the hues are darkening, slowly turning grey to black
For the two who stray in dusk, all hope is long since gone
Cruel is the winter_s reign, merciless the grasp of despair

For what mirth there is left in life for a motherless son
What solace in this world for a widower to find

Slender the shape in night, unbearable the beauty
Shining in the silvery light, watching me with wistful eyes
Evanescent this vision, unattainable this illusion
But an image in my troubled dreams, hewn out of yearning and rue
If I only could I would
Change everything

Today is the day, the moment of reckoning
For too long I've been hiding this truth within my chest
Today is the day when I will come clean
Answer for my deeds and stand up for my faint-heartedness

If I only could I would change everything
Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time

In your time of need I betrayed you
When I should have watched over you I walked away
Now there are two straying souls weak in faith

In your time of need I left you
When I should have been strong I turned my back on you
Now there are two straying souls about to break

When there now are two of us alone
There's not anymore anyone alone

Today is the day when I will face you at length
You my child have wept enough far too long swallowed your hate
Today is the day when I will promise to myself 
Take care from you I've been running away and with for so many years

If I only could I would change everything
Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time
Would you come and share
My cross, my pain, my heartbroken nature
For this burden is too heavy to bear
Too troublesome for one man to handle

Since my darkness swallowed
The last gleam of light
I've been rambling in the shadows
Hour after hour in the dark

They who never got sorrow,
Grinding grief in their hearts
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing

They who never witnessed beauty,
That flamed even the all-encompassing night 
Never lost a thing,
Never had a thing

Now these bitter tears run ceaseless,
And drown my hope far too deep
It must've been the day we parted
When I trapped this sadness in me

Since my darkness swallowed
The last gleam of light
I've been clothed in mourning,
Wearing sorrow day and night
And so does the downhearted tune
Resound through this murky night
And the wind groan its wistful song
For the ill-lucked dwellers in plight

These two round-shouldered figures
Forward slowly through this grey day
Under the fores'ts white canopy
Out of the drifting snow's way

With rime dressed-faces they wander
With guilt carved-hearts they flee
With grim stained-minds they hover
Between hope and despair

With rime dressed-faces they wander
With guilt carved-hearts they flee
With grim stained-minds they ponder
If they ever be free of their sins

May the stars become my eyes
And the wind become my hearing
Let them guide us through
These pitch-dark mornings

May the snowfall end
And the shining moon rise 
So we can find our way out
From these all-consuming nights

Underneath the blanket of stars
Embraced by another cold night
Two round-shouldered figures
Leave these shores behind

Quietly they wonder
If they ever will see the light
They now lose in their shadows
Owe to the darkest of nights

                                                                    
Brought back from the silence
As darkness whitened into a day
Tried to weave the pieces together
Force the past away

Mind weary of sorrow
Body tired from the way
Welcomed yet another morning
Of longing and dismay

What have I for you to offer
Besides this long haul
Wade across vast snowfields
Journey through endless moors

Death walked the earth today
Without a sound, motionless
Forced its way into my arms
Caressed me with the dark

Dragged again up to surface
From the bowels of the earth
To face yet another morning
Breath gasping black steam of death

These are our waking hours
In cold sunlight we pine away
Towards yet another morning
Till following hopeless day
What solemnity can be found in this death?
A traitor's smile, the honour of betrayal

How comfort could be found in the dreariest of nights?
What solace for guilt-driven mind, tarnished heart?
Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark
In maelstrom of despair dimming each other's shine

And half of his blood runs like mine - kindred spirit to me
But the gleam in his eyes remind of the one who is gone forever

When dreams carry me past this life, to thin shrouding mist
I rest in silence, in place lifeless and desolate

Long are midwinter's nights as the will to live has died
Evanescent the unwarming light, evoking memories of life
- Of the life long lost, buried in ashes of love and joy

And half of his blood bleeds like mine - kindred spirit, yet free
But the gleam in his eyes abates for my guilt shackles him too

What sublimity can be found in this love?
Weakling's trust, the moral of deceiver

There's no future for a son under this burden of grief
No leading to walk aside this tormented ghost
Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark
In maelstrom of despair father suppressing the only shine

As the end is slowly looming our paths must now diverge
Pressure slowly easing, shackles unchained, uplifting

Beyond many a weary league
Where dimming light gives birth to evening stars
At the treelines of distant, devouring woods
Await my demons, embodying this longing

Better to sleep now on stranger's porch, find home on foreign soil
Brighter the sun to a forsaken child than to a father in despair
Disencumbered from this grief with the most cruel way
Deserted to be alone, abandoned to be free
This will be for now and for ever the diverging of our paths...

Now that this night has turned into a dawn
I step aside from this path of grieving
Left with all these things I never had chance to say
Words wishful, filled with caring

You must stop your bleeding
Before you run yourself dry
You must let go of your wound
Because love it is crying for is gone

Now that this night has turned into a dawn
I give up this life I have been leading
Left with all these things I never meant to say
Words deceitful, double-dealing

As every breaking day fades away before the dusk
So does hate pause and resentment turn to reason
You've carried enough this burden meant only for me to bear
Now it's your time to straighten up, time for you to walk tall
Alone...
Wretched is my lot here, mirthless is my fate
Alone to face the cruel winters, endure the dreary cold
What is there to hope for, what is there to seek
For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son

Whose sins am I now atoning for?
Whose lapses am I forced to undo?

So echoes my tune through these darkling shaws
Above the frozen streams resounds my song
Only these sullen trees will hearken to me
Only snow-bound hills ever hear my call

What is there to hope for, what is there to seek
For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son
For this embittered man, for this grim castaway

Solace I find in the light of the pale moon
My comfort in the night the murmur of the trees
Now I set forth without ever glancing back
It is time to make my own way through the dusk
When it rains, it pours like hell...
In their lofty chambers dwell
The sacred and divine
Resting in seraphic bliss
The timeless and sublime

Far above the mortal sphere
Dreaming without a care
Far above the weeping world
Sleeping amidst the light of stars

Too far away to hear our calls
Too far away to care at all

On the burnished thrones they sit
Might in their blazing eyes
Vault of heaven at their feet
Undying flames inside

Never shall decay or death
Touch on the blithe souls
Sorrowless the days of gods
Amidst the everblooming groves

But where do we lay our heads to rest?
Where do we shelter when the night falls?

For the part of man
Is to take the sombre path
Stumble in the dark
Stray amidst the dust and ash

Like forgotten ghosts
Drifting in the driving wind
Dashing towards the void
Whirling blindly through the night

Like water flung from the highest cliff
We fall,
lunge,
swirl,
dissolve,
and fade away
Down into the unknown
Wreathed in silence, laid down in shades
Swathed in regrets, deluded astray
Forgotten in half-light, drawn in despair
Soothed in slumber so dreadful and fair

Rending and searing and twisting my dreams
Alone in the gloom with the nightmares unseen

The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one:
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done

Worthless the pledges, all vows but lies
Fateful her kisses, where a serpent hides
First beckoned to step from the twilight to glare
Then left in the dark for the demons to share

Only the stars see, only the moon hears...

And quietly the water-lilies sigh
Like the last breath of a weary soul
And the weed sway in the dreary waters
Like a girl's dark hair they wave about

And the black stones under my bare feet
Cold and smooth like her milk-white palm
And the silence which falls upon this shore
Resounds now louder than oncoming storm

For all is gone
Spring brought the two together
Married the wind with the fire
Under the secrecy of lush birch trees
Opposite hearts became one

One day followed another
Weeks passed, months lapsed
Until wind grew to a storm
And fire to a burning pile

Cold gust of whirlwind
Fiery flames, burning sharp
Adoration all too strong pushed the two apart

Different from the start
Fate that never was written in the stars
Led to a change of hearts

The fall split the one in two
Under the pouring rain
Dressed them both in loneliness
And led to their separate ways

The fire could not be tamed with the wind
Or the wind suppressed by the flames
As blending the light with the dark
Merely results in grey
Listen to the night, hearken to the silence
The wind sings in fir-trees, forest´s music rings
Rueful is the tune, wailful the soughing
Soothing is the choir, murmur of the trees

Time to forget all the heartache and pain
Time to leave behind all the toil and travail
Here where the water mirrors a still sky
Here a fair place for a child to lie

Under the woeful sky, moss-grown our bed tonight

Here we sprawl in mellow darkness
In warm caress of the night
Far away from world's betrayals
Afar from all the Heaven's might

Better to dream, far sweeter to slumber
Than face the cold days, bear the grim longing
Time to rest a while, close the drowsy eyes
Sleep till the dawn, till the bleak morning

Heed not the rustle or hoots of the owl
Heed not the ghosts that still dwell in the soul
Night brings us solace and serenity deep
Night brings at last neverending sleep

Better it would be to sleep forever
In silent shades of the evernight
Sweet are the dreams in the groves of death
Far away from the earthly woes

Sound is the sleep under spruce's boughs
Serene are the dreams in the darkling shade
Gone are the cares of the waking world
Forgotten the sorrows of the weary heart
To know love is to ache;
hurt yourself and repent
For in the end all is gone;
lights go out, your time is spent

If I were you I would retract and lock my heart
Concede defeat and admit I was off the mark
If I were you I would turn away and hide my face
Swallow my pride and then finish here it's all disgrace

All of our dreams now laid on the sand
To wait by the perilous tides
To be washed away into the depths
And sink without a trace
Just a fool's hope remains

To rejoice is to lapse;
fool yourself and repent
Mirth will soon turn into woe,
reveries to contempt

If I were you I would now bring the curtain down
Accept my lot and thus fathom out my own bounds
If I were you I would rue the day when I was born
Cleanse all in life and redeem myself from scorn

Remember these words when tide is turning
The less you hope for, the less you suffer
If you dare to trust, then you shall shatter
Lunge from the heights and fall to smithereens

And when you come here with charred wings and a defiled heart
Wait not for compassion or words of consolation
For only a gleeful smile is greeting you
I have come to the end of my line
With these final steps I take back my freedom
Unchain the shackles that never could hold my mind

Time keeps running and running
Outstripping the dead tired ones
The hours will run out from us all
And in the end no one differs from the other

Only the blue sky and the green grass
Go on forever in this world
Where seconds feel like eternity
And years pass in blink of an eye

When the last rays of light
Set behind these shores
Night wraps me in its blanket
And leads my way to the stars

Through the fear and the ache
Past the storm and the rain
I have made peace with the world
I am born again

I may be gone in the flesh
But my love will stay here
I am always with you in spirit
So just stay strong

When the last rays of light
Set behind these shores
Night wraps me in its blanket
And leads my way to the stars

Through the fear and the ache
Past the storm and the rain
I have made peace with the world
I am born again

Through the fear and the ache
Past the storm and the rain
I have made peace with the world
I am born again

No one wins tonight
No one gets a closure
No one walks away victorious

But don't forget me
Don't you forget me
Burn a candle for me when you can

Don't forget me!
Don't forget me!
Don't forget me!

[Whispering:]
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
With this fall (I fall...) great grey clouds covered the sky
Dimming the light of sun, muting stars and crescent moon
Lost inside the world of gloomy, haunting shades
Descending into this abyss of human soul

In this dreariest of nights
Time can draw out like a blade

And yet Her grace shines through
Through me, and the brooding clouds
And if her light never falls on me
I'm content just to feel the lack

And this fall set requiem for my way
Away from other's paths, I turned to desolation
Away from other's thoughts, timid and surpassing
Away from the others, beyond caring

In this darkest of hours
Time draws out like a knife

The reflection once whole, now only a wound, seeping hurt and loss
The image once so bold, now only a scar, dry of hope and light

For all things ought to say, left unsaid
For all deeds ought to do, left undone
Be with me now...
In the evening of a grey day, a bleak day
I strayed into the dim silence of the hallowed trees
Where the fir-trees whisper of those been, those gone
Where the sacred earth still hides all those we once loved

"O father, hear these words, your son is not made for this world
Faint-hearted and careworn, into this vile life I was hurled
In the woods the fiends sigh, I swear I heard the demons neigh
On the seashore I espy the dreadful void under the tides"

Ill-assorted with this life, these cares
Each moment I am waiting for the worst to come my way
Dark berry from my mother's womb; a frail one
I was affrighted at my birth, bewildered from the start

Better it would be to stay in the shades
In the thicket of the dead, in the groves of death
Here I would lie to the end of the days

"Hear me now, my hapless son
Warn away all yours fears
Make good use of your brief days
Life may be grim but death is more austere
By yourself you sit and wait
By yourself you will have time to repent"

"In these lowly halls
No moon will beam, no sun will shine
In these narrow rooms
No tears are seen, no laughter heard"

At the dawn of a quiet day
I strolled from the woods, returned to the hearth
And with a restful mind I roamed
The dreary shores, the darkling wilds
Greeting all the days that befall
Taking life as it comes
Feed off the melancholy
Get drunk from despair
Rejoice in the name of failure
Deliverance found in pain

Live, learn and love
Treasure all the colours
Even in the thick of night
Daylight holds sway
O darkness, if in thy arms I could rest
For a while and with these earthly eyes
See thy dim smile

Maid of twilight, lass of duskfall
Hang the moon on the sky's arch
Soothe the weight of a darkling day

"Rock here in the birch's lap
Swing in the manor of wind
Lay down your weary head
Let the blue stars darken"

O silence, if in thy cradle I could sway
Like a child, heart the amending song,
The sighing of the shades

Maid of twilight, lass of duskfall
Serve thy goblet to me
Let me drink to the last drop
The sweet opiate of the dreams:

Ours is the silence,
The echo old ageless night
A gleam in the blackest of streams,
One fleeing moment

For vain is all the toil and trouble,
Vain is all the heartbreak
In the end I'll find my solace
In an earthen cradle

So good night.
How does it feel?
To welcome the new day
Not worth saving
To fall down on own imprudent acts
The wind answers quietly
Clears the black smoke far thick to see
Unfolds the true nature of man

"And this fire it burns
Consuming us all
Withered garden for posterity
Inheritance in flames"

"When the mankind moves
Rest of the life shakes
All once green turned into stone
Flesh into dust and soil
Where the last wave broke
The shores blazed red
And place once called home
Turned into hall of dead"

How does it feel?
Bite the hand that feeds you
Poison the well that waters you
Prospects made from castles of sand
Legacy in barren land

Breed, greed, bleed
Legacy in barren land
The last wave broke
Prospects made from castles of sand
This I have learnt:
World forces all of us down
The fleeing years bend our backs
Love but smears our hearts

Here I now lie still like a broken bow
Soul sullen and rigid with the will to die
Sighing after the days long since gone
Cursing every step on this ill-fated trail

"In vain I try to forget - In vain I try to forgive
Black bird from evening sky - raven from heaths of night
Come and take my cares - carry away the grief
Bereave me of my woes - rend off these earthly throes
Fly them to deepest lakes - to the starlit shores"

This I have learnt:
Even the sweetest wine turns to sour
We work our fingers to the bone
All our efforts of no avail

Here we all are but troubled guests
On darkling earth
Lost echoes that pine away
Into the dusk
Nothing more than the wind to rely on
Nothing more than the death
to comfort us in the end

This I have heard:
All ends in serene sleep
All these sorrows are washed away
As we lapse into the night

But I know it's a lie
And down we go again...
Into the ocean of sorrow
Towards to sea of despair
In the deep groves of the earth
Lifeline running in roaring stream

"Like sand slipping through my fingers
Nothing ever lasts, ever will"

"To impart elegance all living
Experience the grandeur in giving
Felicity found in commitment
Tranquillity in mere being"

And down we go again
Under the relentless waves
Into the arms of calm breakers
Into bayou of forgotten dreams

Like sand slipping through my fingers
Nothing ever lasts, ever will

"To impart elegance all living
Experience the grandeur in giving
From existence into oblivion
Not in cycles but in lines"

Getting nowhere fast
By contending with time
Accept the alteration
Come to terms with your days

Down we go just the same
Into the ocean of sorrow
Towards to sea of despair

This river runs relentlessly
And this river runs deep
Not in cycles but in lines
(I...) I sing with a shattered voice
(I...) I sing with a heavy heart

There in the deepest well of dreams
Echoed a distant song
I hearkened to the hallowed voice
Stirred from ageless sleep

Through this barren soil you came
Sweet scent of spring
Came and cast the earth in bloom
Lent your light to me

But now the summer's dreams are bent
Like grain against the scythe
And memories of blissful days
They fall like leaves

For autumn's songs are made of loss
Of yearning and regret
In bitter tone they are recited
Uttered with a heavy heart

"I sing with shattered voice
A tale of marred souls
I cry for consumed hearts
And springs forever gone"

The lights of sun and stars will fade
And moon covers its face
All the tunes will quiet down
And the songs shall die

As this wretched heart unfolds
Like mouth of furnace grins
Inside there's but a blackened cell
Full of filth and flames

There once was time when I resounded by your side
There once was time when I trembled under your eyes

What do I hear when you're gone?
The wind's harrowing cry
What do I hear when you're gone?
The sighing of the languid grief
Cold creeps in, silver crowns the land
Long are the evening now, grave the guilt's weight
Stars shriek their emptiness in the darkling sky
All the world is but a barrow shrouded in white
Now close your eyes
And open your weary heart
Let me soothe away the woes
Of fiendish world...

As will the sun bathe the land
In its warming light
So shall the moon ascend
To guide the day to wane
In turn the rain to hush
The tumult of this world
And the wind to rise,
Sigh a lullaby in trees

"Not in these troubled times
I'm not the one you pined for
No, not into calmer waters
I'm not the one you long for"

"But a scarecrow, an anathema to the world
Looking in from the outside
It's time to turn my back
Walk off the beaten path
Seek heartening in solitude"

The arch of sky is roof where I call it home
Drizzle of rain, the only music from now on
My bed is made from juniper's boughs
Of mire and moss my pillow

Lone footprints diverge from tree line
Autumn veils the sloughs with rime
Shell of quagmire
Yet too fragile to bear a man
"Nothing can offer content
Nothing can ease the pain
Nothing can wear off the sorrow
One is born to bear within

While your world is worth of trying
My world is mere cold
No chance in disillusion
Only the end of the road"

Man weighed down with sorrow
Anguished from the sole being
Destined to live with uneasiness
Always the hard way

Cold is the world
For the ones excluded
Dark is the path
In the absence of light
Compelled to cherish beauty in longing
Cling on love amidst of the suffering

No chance in disillusion
No, not in this world
Not for a man
Weighed down with sorrow
Only the end of the road
Another break of dawn
Forces the shadows recede
Breaks the barrier of clouds
Blaze a trail for the light

In the arms of white soil
Lies a fallen boy
Left alone to freeze to death
Grown numb in the cold

This is the new beginning
Start with a clean sheet
Redemption of the liberty
Freedom through the bloodshed

When hatred old for centuries
Poisons the minds of sane
Distrust kills all the kindness
Envy slain the ideal

Demise of spirit and flesh
No victory in death
Only the defeat remains
When the sons take fathers' lives

What good can come out of this?
Is this the price we must pay?
Redemption of the liberty
Freedom through the bloodshed

This is the new beginning
Rebirth through devastation
All the hope of a nation
In the hands of few

Another chapter in common story
Nothing new under the sun
This is the new beginning
Sad ending to others
Listen to the night, hearken to the silence
The wind sings in fir-trees, forest's music rings
Rueful is the tune, wailful the soughing
Soothing is the choir, murmur of the trees

Time to forget all the heartache and pain
Time to leave behind all the toil and travail
Here where the water mirrors a still sky
Here a fair place for a child to lie

Under the woeful sky, moss-grown our bed tonight

Here we sprawl in mellow darkness
In warm caress of the night
Far away from worlds betrayals
Afar from all the Heavens might

Better to dream, far sweeter to slumber
Than face the cold days, bear the grim longing
Time to rest a while, close the drowsy eyes
Sleep till the dawn, till the bleak morning

Heed not the rustle or hoots of the owl
Heed not the ghosts that still dwell in the soul
Night brings us solace and serenity deep
Night brings at last neverending sleep

Better it would be to sleep forever
In silent shades of the evernight
Sweet are the dreams in the groves of death
Far away from the earthly woes

Sound is the sleep under spruces boughs
Serene are the dreams in the darkling shade
Gone are the cares of the waking world
Forgotten the sorrows of the weary heart
When the cold wind blows
Sending shivers down your spine
There is none so blind
As those who do not listen
Sleep of reason produces monsters
Walk away from the world
Give in all you got
Do not bother to try
Fight 'til the last drop

Walk among the shadows
Leave your mark behind
Lose yourself into grey mass
Make statement of your life

And I feel tired, empty and hollow, heart-broken inside
And I feel this life has nothing for me anymore
And I feel revived, sacred and honoured, one of the kind
And I feel this life is something I was chosen for

Let in the anxiety
Make the most of every day
Dwell on guilt and misery
There is tomorrow after today

You cannot win always
But you can lose every time
You alone have the power
You only hold the control

One fleeting moment
Few short-lived seconds
Mere short flicker in time
For the shadow to grow and die
Far above the darkling world
Soars the blackest bird
Far above the darkling world
It sings the saddest song

(And those who hear its cry...)

Those who hear it will go astray
Those who hear it will wither away
And nothing besides they hear
Nothing besides they think anymore

> They will turn, they will turn, turn away from the sun
> They will turn, they will turn, turn against, against themselves

At the midmost night
Each midmost night
Upon Death's palm
The bird will rest a while
And gently Death will speak
Softly Death will hum and whisper:
"Fly again my bird, fly again over the world"

At the midmost night
Each midmost night
Upon Death's palm
The bird will rest a while
And gently Death will speak
Softly Death will hum and whisper:
"Fly again my bird, fly again over the world"

Fly again! Fly over the world!

Those who hear it will bow their heads
Those who hear it will find no rest
And black as a dream is now their way
For into the shades they all shall fade

They will turn, they will turn, turn away from the sun
They will turn, they will turn, turn against, against themselves

At the midmost night
Each midmost night
Upon Death's palm
The bird will rest a while
And gently Death will speak
Softly Death will hum and whisper:
"Fly again my bird, fly again over the world"

At the midmost night
Each midmost night
Upon Death's palm
The bird will rest a while
And gently Death will speak
Softly Death will hum and whisper:
"Fly again my bird, fly again over the world"

Far above the darkling world
Soars the blackest bird
Far above the darkling world
It sings the saddest song
Son of man
You're on your own
The coming winter
You'll face alone

The heart that you cherished so
The hand that you tried to hold
Belong to a stranger
But a vision you crafted

Alone you came into this world
Came into being
Alone you are still when you're leaving
When you're waning

Hounds of winter
Bay at the moors
Demons of loneliness
Bide at your door now

Not one heart that would stay true
Not one soul that bleeds for you
They'll turn away
One dreary day

Alone you're in this world
In the middle of it all
If you keep holding on
It will hurt even more

Only one who stays
Only one who waits
Your shadow by your side
Only friend in life
Beneath a silent stone
In cold caress of the earth
Where timeless sleep reigns
Where world is but a distant toll

No stars shine, no moon roams
No sun broods, no winds blow
No tunes chime amidst the bones
No prayers for the devil’s own

Night falls and dawn breaks again
Autumns and winters slowly pass
And all these earthly tremors
But a remembrance for me

Mine is this forgotten song
Buried deep and heard no more
Mine is this unhallowed sleep
Deathless wait under the trees

All the years in vain I fought
All my deeds have gone to nought
Unsung is the tale of mine
Mislaid 'til the end of time

Hidden deep under the vale of the moon
Entombed beneath the white flowers of death

Only the frail words
Written in the stone
Retell my name anymore

Only the frail words
Written in the stone
Recall my days anymore
Walking on the gallows ground,
Rope tightly around the neck
Raven-bird on each shoulder waiting for the pick
Chasing for the shadows, ideal that does not exist
On the endless road leading to nowhere

Let the sounds and light wash over
Bathe the darkest corners of melancholy
Blow burning flames into your soul
Reveal the truth between the lines

In this world every hour wounds
Every second draws blood
Every moment delivers pain
If you choose so

In this world every hour kills
Every minute seeps despair
There is nothing but suffering
If you decide so

Walking on the gallows ground,
Rope tightly around the neck
Flock of vultures circling above,
Waiting for the feast
Reaching through the blackest sky
For the brightest star
Seeking for the guidance
From the night that never dawns

Guided by empty promises
Charmed by hollow words
No truth or answers could be found
Nothing but years numbered in me

Gods are great, but the heart, the heart is greater
From our wounds they're born, from our sadness they grow
Gods are strong, but the mind, the mind is stronger
In our scars they dwell, but in our hearts they burn

                                                                    
Frequented by displeasing memories
Haunted by the creatures born of night
Sunk deep in the dejection and distress
Weak and powerless to severe the ties

Bound in the dream world
Wide-awake for every hour of sleep
Faltering towards the future
Only to come across with the past

No hope beacons here
No rays of light lingers
Underneath the black earth
Where the forgotten wait

No love resides here
No solace can be found
Underneath the cold soil
Where the sleeping gods lie

There is nothing to remember
When you are lost
There is nothing to strive for
When you are gone

Now rest for you are tired, let it go
Dive into sleepless dream, embrace oblivion
The moments of light between the darkness
Are brief and flee fast in the house of dead

Searching my way out of confusion
In this cold night cold as my heart
Trying to find a resolution
Assurance and strength to just go on

I'm in the thousand winds that blow
In the circling flight of blackbird
In the stars that shine at night
In the last dying rays of light
Be gone sorrow, leave your dead behind
Stay away grief, lay the ghosts to rest
Since the very beginning
Surrounded by silence
Brooded in solitude
Grown in the darkling shades

Destined to find my own way
To create the path to follow
And the scars of tomorrow
Will make you bleed only today

And the rain keeps falling
Pouring down from the sky
Washing footmarks from the mire
Leaving no trace behind

And as the shadows grow taller
Swallow all the light
I'm left alone in darkness
With no one by my side

Since the very beginning
Chosen to bear the burden
Abide tragedy in the blood
Close shadows in the heart

Always beaten by the stronger
Never defeated by anyone
Never disarmed of power
Held by the ones guided by fire
I am the last
The one who holds on past
Clinging on something we used to have

I am the last
The one who chose this path
To walk among the world of shadows

Always one for sorrow
Never one for love
Two souls destined to failure
Right from the start

It was always one for sorrow
Never one for love
Two souls set for departure
Before the nightfall

And here I stand
Devoid of faith, bereft of hope
Unable to break the walls around me

And here I stand
Shell of a man from past
Condemned to world of resentment

It took two to summon the thunder
One to bring down the rain
Two to torn all asunder
One to suffer the pain

Two to crush dreams and wonders
One to lose everything
All once beautiful and sacred
Nothing but in vain
Cast down into the darkness
To stumble towards unknown
Only emptiness to hold on to
Only shadows to seek support from

So arm your heart with self-worth
Yet prepare for sorrow and pain
Don't let the fear eat you from inside
Wear your weaknesses with pride

And even if you crush my body
And drain it 'til the last drop
You can never touch my spirit
You can never touch my soul

No matter how bleak or how hopeless
No matter how hard or how far
You can never break my conation
Tear the will apart from desire

Thrown down into the flames
Enfolded by ash and ember
Quenched in scorching fire
Hardened in undying flare

Through demise and disaster
Past the flames of the end
Rise above ever stronger
Disown the past for the present

Don't be guided by fear or failure
It's now or never
Just give it all in
Darkness is ignorance
Knowledge is light
Fight only with yourself
Or the shadows of the night

For this life will break you
Years will wear you down, wear you down
And every day you die a little
Until the shadows will take you, shadows will take you

Dying doesn't make this world dead to us
Breathing doesn't keep the flame alive in us
Dreaming doesn't make time less real for us
One life, one chance, all ephemeral, ephemeral

Darkness is ignorance
Knowledge is light
Fight only with yourself
Or the shadows of the night

All the pain and suffering will dispirit or feed you, dispirit or feed you
For each and every time your failures will craft you
When the fear of them is gone, fear is gone

Dying doesn't make this world dead to us
Breathing doesn't keep the flame alive in us
Dreaming doesn't make time less real for us
One life, one chance, all ephemeral,

We stumble and hover at the edge of the world
One life, one chance – that's all we have, that's all we have

Never walk away
Turn your back on yourself
One life, one chance – that's all we have

Dying doesn't make this world dead to us
Breathing doesn't keep the flame alive in us
Dreaming doesn't make time less real for us
One life, one chance, all ephemeral, ephemeral,

                                                                    

                                                                    

                                                                    
Rooted within the pitch-black heart
Entrenched behind weary eyes
In the faraway song the cold sea sung
In the calm whisper of winds afar
It lies, calls and awaits deep in the primeval dark
Embodiment of despair that never leaves or severs the ties
When your heart gives out and your love collapses
When the hand that never lets go is there no more
When you reap and sow only throe and resentment
When there's no one else but you to blame it for

When all you ever wish for is to go back once more
When all you ever wish for is to change it all
When all you feel is remorse, pain and regret
When you dwell in the past unable to move on

And we drift far away in our dreams
Gather further distance while we sleep
Build a wall of glass thick and deep
We hear but choose not to listen

And we drift far away in our dreams
Gather further distance while we sleep
Still the bridge is enflamed with fire
Leave all the love we had behind

When you realize that your life is a one-way road
When you realize that there's no point of return
When you understand that you can't go back anymore
When you understand you can only move onwards

And we drift far away in our dreams
Gather further distance while we sleep
Build a wall of glass thick and deep
We hear but choose not to listen

And we drift far away in our dreams
Gather further distance while we sleep
Still the bridge is enflamed with fire
Leave all the love we had behind

Slow down
We need to slow down
We need to slow down so I can catch you

We need to slow down so I can catch you
We need to slow down so you can catch me
We need to slow down so I can catch you
We need to slow down so you can catch me
Slow down
I have drunk the yearning,
Swallowed the flame in full,
And now I will bend the skies to my will.

Two eternities can never be so far part,
That I could not bridge them together.

„I hear the unsaid thoughts,
The silence throught the storm,
I speak without the words,
With unbound soul,
I’ll bring forth the Sun,
And hand over the moon,
I’ll hide the evening stars,
And fold them in your heart.“

I have touched the longing,
Breathed the wistful air,
If I wish, I will turn the winters to springs.

Throught the dust and fear,
I find the faintest light,
And I can see life,
Admist the death that wreaths us all.

„I hear the unsaid thoughts,
The silence throught the storm,
I speak without the words,
With unbound soul,
I’ll bring forth the Sun,
And hand over the moon,
I’ll hide the evening stars,
And fold them in your heart.“

[2x]
Here at your feet,
I rest my head,
Hear the roar of time,
The birth of stars.

[2x]
This is the gift of man,
The key to see it all,
The hidden wonders,
Hope in despair.

But only the few will find it,
Only the few will keep it,
Only the few will ever turn towards the Sun.
Never pariah but always on one's own
Unwavering mind, black heart rebellion

Cold is the night for the ones born of shadows
Solemn is the way for the ones never restless
Cold is the night for the ones drawn to darkness
Desolate is the path of self-believers

[2x]
Never bow to anyone;
Never give in
Never surrender to anyone;
Never go astray

Morning star, angel of the dawn
Light your torch, your radiant crown
Fill the silence with trembling thunder
Light our path with glimmering eyes

Lies...
Lies will bend the minds of the weak
Life...
Life is meant to be led, not followed

Lonely is the road for the ones seeking the truth
Bleak is the trail leading to perception
But only knowledge can cure the blindness
And only knowledge can open our eyes and make us see

Never bow to anyone;
Never give in
Never surrender to anyone;
Never go astray

Morning star, angel of the dawn
Light your torch, your radiant crown
Fill the silence with trembling thunder
Light our path with glimmering eyes

Lies...
Lies will bend the minds of the weak
Life...
Life is meant to be led, not followed

Never below
Never above
On one's own
Never below
Never above
Black heart rebellion

Morning star, angel of the dawn
Light your torch, your radiant crown
Fill the silence with trembling thunder
Light our path with glimmering eyes

Morning star, angel of the dawn
Light your torch, your radiant crown
Dress the sky in ever-cold silver
Unshroud the sphere from the clouds
And all the time we've struggled for
Without a reason or way out
All the grounds we've based our fight on
No one remembers anymore why

And all the blame that has gone into
To run in circles, stand fast still
And all the hatred we've poured into
To fill the trench between us

No more tears from me
These rivers run dry
No more fear in me
This heart's stone inside

And as the shadows give way to light
Grow and thrive
Every day must lose to night
Fade and die

And all the time we spent together
United as one on the same side
And despite the chink in the armour
We fought a good fight, we had our time

And its a shame we let all precious
Gather rust, brittle and decay
Shame we had to kill all the graceful
To grasp what we really had there
Behold; never trust anyone
Every shadow shields a traitor
Always keep your friends near you
And your enemies even closer

Behold; never trust anyone
Betrayal lurks in every corner
Always keep your back against the wall
Your mind collected and focused

The crash of collapsing worlds
The crackle of burning paper
Always speak less than you know
Walk one step ahead of others

Their words cut like knives
Their words sharp as razor
But never surrender to fear
Never let them take your freedom

And remember, you'll always be alone
Since the day you choose your own path
So make sure to prepare yourself
For everything live might throw at you

Because you know your only chances are
To win this war by each battle
Merit the difference; never bow anyone
You are your own saviour

Live as if you were to die tomorrow
Learn as if you were to live forever
Stay awake while the world is sleeping
Free yourself before you disappear
Old is my moon - Circle is complete
Long has been the way - The day is giving in
The dusk is thickening, cold engulfs the shore
I hear across the stream as Charon blows the horn
One more summer I ask for, I crave
One more autumn just to finish my song

Grant me this wish, bestow this gift
Ye noble gods I pray
When all is done, I'll go down with the sun
And welcome the twilight that falls

I know its in vain
For it's my time
There is no delay
Last light will hide

Hearken now to the trumpet call
As it echoes in the dark (whirls through the night)
Time has come to say the farewells
Step down into the shades

I scrape the sand that's running out, slipping away
Dripping now through this weary hands
Vanishing into thin air
All I ask is one more day to redeem it all
Then gladly I will pass and welcome the silent world

With no sound, upon the calm stream
The black boat moves, like mist on the waves

Slowly Charon rows, slowly sky turns
Stars fade away, we enter the shades

But a wanderer I am on the heaths of night
On this shore now ends my prolonged path
I am home at last
Tonight my dust is being gathered here
And brought before my father
Set before his throne, I am home at last
Darkness is ignorance
Knowledge is light
Fight only with yourself
Or the shadows of the night

For this life will break you
Years will wear you down
And everyday you die a little
Until the shadows will take you

Dying doesn't make this world dead to us
Breathing doesn't keep the flame alive in us
Dreaming doesn't make time less real for us
One life
One chance
All ephemeral

All the pain and suffering
Will dispirit or feed you
For each and every time your failures
Will craft you
When the fear of them is gone
Fear is gone

We stumble and hover
At the edge of the world
One life, one chance
That's all we have

Never walk away
Turn your back on yourself
One life, one chance
That's all we have
A child will look up in the sky
Ask guidance from the sun
And directions from the moon
Counsel from the mighty ones
Hiding beyond the stars
Far above this earth

No redemption from the skies
No response up from heavens
No relief will ever come
From beyond this realm

For the spirits in their halls
Will turn away their glance
Hearken to the songs of the stars
Consider the weight of time
Ponder over the spheres
Watch how the firmament turns
To place your trust in them
Is like leaving in the dark
Like letting the gale take you where it may

Ward off your fears
Break your harness
Forge your own fate
Rebuild yourself
We're nothing more than shadows
Light scatter of the dying sun
Just particle beams in passing
Waves riding the eternal dark

We're nothing more than shadows
Mere remnants of the distant past
Animated sparks of energy
Bursting flames of the end

We're nothing more than shadows
We grow tall then fade away
We're vessels for a surging power
With solar fire in our veins

We're nothing more than shadows
Flares blazing in a blink of an eye
We're nothing more than shadows
Glimmers of hope against the black sky

And far upon the skies
Lies the truth within
We are shadows of the dying sun

Children of infinity
Always gazing to our past
We are dust of the stars

And I feel it in my heart
And I know it in my mind
That's all, ever will be

We're the dust of the stars
Never thought that love and sadness
Could ever walk hand in hand
Never thought that laughter and sorrow
Could live within this same heart

We came far living on stolen moments
We can pretend for only so long
We all fail, stumble and fall
We are the same 'till the end in fire

Out to the sea I cry my heart
Into the wind I weep my sorrows
Below this soil I lay my thoughts
Under the waves I drown my grief

Out to the sea you cry your heart
Into the wind you weep your sorrows
Below this soil we lay our thoughts
Under the waves we drown our grief

You were the one I believed in
I was the one worth your trust
But stars no longer will guide us
We walk in all-consuming dark

For life shapes us and we never return
To the same where we left from
Hope always looks for a disappointment
And tranquility for a war

Out of the sea I cry my heart
Into to the wind I weep my sorrows
Below this soil I lay my thoughts
Under the waves I drown my grief

Out of the sea you cry your heart
Into to the wind you weep your sorrows
Below this soil we lay our thoughts
Under the waves we drown our grief

And I sail this sea in a leaking ship
Try to cross an ocean without a sheet
No wind will carry me to the shore
No wave will take me back to home

You are in the silence around me
You are the water in my lungs
You are in escaping daylight
As we dance our way into the dark

Into the dark...