Corrupted by the promise of words
The hopeful lured by instinct unscathed
Suffering revealed innocence lost
opened the mind to illusions not gained

Subjected addicted to control
Stabbing backs to get your way
Strength is defense for the future and past
voice of a thousand soldiers- born to fight

Killed or be Killed that's what is taught
human guinea pig - greed that motivates
pissed off and confused - still they laugh
tools of the trade - product of mass corruption

The weak are ripped and torn away
Battered down nothing to say
Reflections of that mirrored stare
Heading in deep into the domination

You don't know what it's like
Enduring the pain of a senseless crime

Corrupted by the promise of words
The hopeful lured by instinct unscattered
Suffering revealed innocence lost
opened the mind to illusions not gained

The weak are ripped and torn away
Battered down nothing to say
Reflections of that mirrored stare
Heading in deep into the domination
Domination
Domination
Domination

You realize and compromise
the ways of life
Your selfish lies
And true disguise
are ment for greed

Telling me we will survive
it's hard to believe
Confide before demise
And then you will see

Your truth in disguise
Your truth in disguise

hide before your vision
of longevity
Face the consequence
of what is not real

Do you realize the sincerity
this life holds balance
You can't control me

Your truth in disguise
Your truth in disguise

Everything is for yourself
you need not reveal
Disguise the truth - changing the deal
it's time to think twice
before you steal
two faced bastard
I will bring you down

One day - one night
it's all it took
to fuck my life
in the swipe of the blade
You feel the Rage, You feel the steel
it's what I live with for years & years

Sink in the skin - don't know where it ends
it's do or die - I'd rather not die
taken a life - didn't have a choice
I pay the price with these fucken chains

I do my time live with the crime
Free at last to wonder just for how long
I a game over hate and lies
the people don't see me with their own eyes

A name on paper is what I'am
for the crime I committed years ago
Yesterday to them - here I'am once again
in a cage over hated and lies

You feel the rage - you feel the steel
it's what I live with for years and years

Your vile smell makes me sick you repulse me
How the fuck you come off like that
A trifling pissant who preys on the weak
You reak of disease that plagues the innocent

You scratch and claw inside my head
The thoughts of perfection enslaved
When you look at yourself what do you see
the useless flesh that you really be

Purging myself I'm slapping you like a beatch
Pain from within no pity for you do I feel
Engaging the war the suffering due unto you
Insane I'am sleep well I might strike at night

Narrow minded fuck
Sorry piece of shit
Dying with the plague
it's what you deserve
Dying with the plague
it's what you deserve motherfucker!

No shame for living low
Box life is all he knows
face scarred and jagged eyes
he sleeps among the flies

One more drink it soothes the pain
walking the streets nothing to gain
Hoping to live for one more day
The truth remains to guide the way

it's what he lives thru
the costly struggle
compelling torture
The thing he calls

Box life
Box life
Box life
Box life

He's dragging day by day
nothing left for him to say
helping hand comes once or twice
living alone he rolls the dice

The path not chosen
Don't know the reason
Never-ending Horror
The constant fall

Understand in my hand lies a force you withstand
Understand in my hand hold the key to demise

Understand draw the line thoughts of you hold in mind
I will stand for what's real for all we are that you feel
Breakdown the Walls
Kept inside
Feed the pain
that you know
Understand
I am Real
Hypocrisy
I will Prevail

I had no fear
I just disappeared
I held no friends out
I just reappeared

Surving Devastation
Coping with the pain

Born to die for you
Given to the truth
inception of our friendship
it's what I hold so real

Surviving Devastation
Coping with the pain

Years go by so fast
with all the things I do hide
do you think you can carry out
with no disrespect in my mind

Stop and take a look
Stop and Reminisce
About the time we both went thru
into the never

Never Again
the love lost
Respect desired

The time comes
to hurt yourself
to hurt one another
until the end

All for the better
As you fear the worst
So you go into
the never this time

it may be forever
the love lost
Maybe forever

Rage - overcome, let it bleed
Crazed - never stop only need
Hate - Slowly grows till it snaps
Pain - slipping thru then you crack

It breaks you down

Wrath - crushing down overwhelm
Scorn - Conquers you at the helm
Hurt - searching thru inner fear
Blame - self destruct slowly clear

it breaks you down

One month separation
Several lifelines of pain
haven't seen your eyes
cuz I haven't seen your
cuz I haven't seen your face

I feel you sleeping, I feel you sigh
I'am your father
it's tearing me apart inside

How could I have done this
I hope you can forgive
I'm living with the anguish
Maybe one day
Maybe one day you'll understand

I feel you breathing, I feel you cry
I'am your father
Your heart I carry with me inside

8 days remain
8 days of pain
I live with the anguish
my head retains strength

Feeling I have failed
So much I have to gain
Nothing could compare
to the life I put in
to the life I put in place

Many times in my life
I've tried to end it all
To many problems to overcome
it was the easy way out
look into saddened eyes
because of certain death
I stop and start to wonder
why I tried to take my fucking life

Mistake number one

Took the weapon to my arms
My life is slowly fading
take me to salvation
I need your help to live
Reality proves me wrong
I'll never do it again
I understand why people hate me
I'll never preplan my death

Did I think it was the way
Suicide not the answer
So much life to look forward to
The truth remains to be seen
Realized Damage Done
Senses never gained
I stop and start to wonder
Why I tried to take my fucking life

Death toll rises
A horrible vision in sight
fighting a war inside my head
for no apparent reason
Endless Killing
is a way of life
mentally scarred inside my brain
no time for healing

Don't fear me - never knowing if we survive
Don't fear me - never knowing if we will die
Don't fear me - Just to wonder if we go home
Don't fear me - man's fault they invented war

Reality of War
Reality of War
Reality of War

Enter my world of savage hysteria
Feeling my blood boil to it's flashpoint
sensing I'am loosing control
thoughts of death the only solution

Finding my victim was never the problem
At plain view from every angle
the smell of flesh soon to be destroyed
pressure to commit- building up faster

Train of thought [X4]

Feeling myself moving closer
Minutes away from becoming a killer
nervousness and fear taking over
I can't believe that it's really me

Anxiously waiting as I awaken
lighting struck the sky
I awoke and realized
No explanations to my disease
My dreams remain the same

Standing on the devil's tower
Talking to the gods
Looking for an answer
To help me with my cause
Scorched by the blazing sun
Molded by the wind
Faced with no life just the pain
Listen to my future - tell me why I'm here

Condemned-Reject-Punishment

I leave it up to one man
Sometimes I don't believe
Awaiting on my punishment
Between the good and bad
I never meant to exonerate
The fact that you exist
The price now - I lay in state
Between heaven and hell

Condemned-Reject-Punishment

In between the good and bad

The sound of extinction
Ringing loud and clear
Appearance of no life
Disfigured to the end

Fork Tongue

He lost his mind every single day
No visitations while his eyes turned gray
No need for sorrow now he's laid to rest
The wounds will heal a new life begins
Yeah - your eyes tell a thousand stories
That no one wants to see
Your half blood through my body
Never meant a damn to me

You sat there for years and years
Insisted you cared but turned away
Right through the words of deceit and false promise
You really think I believe
If you could get it, you'd prove it today
Your cancer, no answer to God you must pray
But now he's gone I'm left to wonder
Only brothers and sisters remain

You sat there for years and years
Insisted you cared - but turned away
Why - must you ask for forgiveness?
Forgiveness is all you've received
Why - must you ask for forgiveness?
Our father's the one you've deceived

I gave you my trust
You spread all the lies
Your evil tongue is social destruction
That is the form I despise
You hold yourself so discreet
Only the world you entice
Never seem to fathom
All the damage that you create

Ruin - ruin - ruin - ruin - yeah 

Your fingers do all the talking
All the lives that you destroy
Your mind has many problems
Just leave me the fuck alone
Modern day advances
Taken over by the weak
Self esteem diminished
Not always do you succeed

Anger - My trust - My hate
Anger - My trust - My hate 
taken over by the weak

You never know if your friend - standing right next to you
Will see you in the following day
You'll never know if the family who loves you
Regret the things they wanted to say
You never know if your lifetime of existence
Will betray you in the blink of an eye
We'll never know the answer
And still the question remains - why must it take us?

I saw your life building up with promise
Your memory is all that is left
I tried to forget by covering up reality
In hopes that you were really somewhere else
We'll never know how much your life affected us
If today would have never come
We'll never know the answer
And still the question remains - why must it take us?

Yeah
I sense my brain collecting all the moments
Your face and your laughter roaming free
We tend to take everything for granted
You never know when it's gonna end
Your soul at rest - put yourself at peace
Cuz we'll see you in the following day
Your soul at rest - put yourself at peace
Cuz we'll see you in the following day - 
God rest your soul

You never know

They can't trust your word
No way to believe the lies
The only one that hurts is you
Everyone sees addiction inside
I know your face - it makes me sick
I've heard your cry - I fail to understand
The pity you seek intensifies
The word is out - the word is out

One by one your victims fall
Can't remember when 
Can't forget them all
The only one that hurts is you
Everyone sees the sickness inside
I know your face - it makes me sick
I've heard your cry - I fail to understand
The pity you seek intensifies
The word is out - the word is selfish

My world uncertain and cold
Vision in stone and blurred
Mobility is stricken
My life I feel is robbed
They lift my hands - they guide me walk
The pain burns inside
They lift my hands - they guide me walk
I want me back!

Looking to the horizon
All is calm and clear
Alas thee hour of salvation
The fields of disbelief

You suffer to keep my existence
This I can no longer take
The time has come to depart
My presence lost - is love gained?
Understand - you are my power
You carry the torch I've instilled
Take a deep breath - grasp from above
I am not gone
Take a deep breath - grasp from above
I am forever

Looking to the horizon
All is calm and clear
Alas thee hour of salvation
The fields of disbelief
Love/Hate

Do you know how it feels to be left alone?
Captive and surrounded by these four padded walls
Laughter is all around me, patience going low
Sanity's at its breaking point, prepare for the blow

Devoted to three - forgotten for one

We need out - devoted to three
Let us spread our wings
He is not forever - open up your eyes
And fuckin' sympathize
You're slowly killing us - the three we will prevail

Devoted to three - forgotten for one

Three months of watching - the world go by
Incomplete and restless - how can you defy?
Your face reflects what you're thinking
You know that it was wrong
Unleash us from this anguish
It's time to let us out

Devoted to three - forgotten - for one

Time and time the story goes
How quick and easy it can slip away
Survived it all for this long
Is it really worth all the pain?
I keep chasing a dream
Without any thought of what I leave behind
You struggle to keep it together
No compassion or respect is given

I can't get it down right
One way all the time
Out of control 
Too much to lose
All these thoughts implanted

Born to play the part from the start
This tragic cycle continues
I sense your backbone breaking
It's time to take a look at this fuckin' picture
I hold my fate and make the choice
Believe me I know what you're thinking
Less than perfect I know I am
You better believe I'm willing to make the change

I can't get it down right
One way all the time
Out of control
Too much to lose
All the thoughts implanted

The book falls down begins its story
My life of living hell
Your eyes are red and glowing
Held captive by the feat

Enhance my curiosity
No escape the end is near
Trapped inside this dark room
Anxiety begins to boil
No power for light
No key to unlock
Never waking up - hands around my neck 
Prepare for my death

I can feel you coming closer
Your breath full of stench
Every movement etched in fear
You're slowly - taking over

Energy drained is energy taken
I don't recommend you play
Power given to this evil
A victim I have - forsaken

Let me go - This weight I want no longer
Let me go - Awaken from this trance
Let me go - Fear of my life
Let me go - Is this a dream or reality

Why!

The fear I stand next to
Sorrow in spite of what?
Sick of what might end up
The actions I must take

The hatred inside frustrates
The past is really to blame
Living day by day on a string
Consumed - enslaved with the pain

I dispose of my decisions
Slowly ripping free the shell
A new person I become
Regret no longer burdens me

Free with mind and body
The experience strengthens me
Sick of what might end up
The action I must take derive

Regret - I can't stand myself
My past - I cannot change
I refuse - My life is torn
Regret - I can't stand myself

Right!

Didn't think the day would come
December 20th the ties were cut
It doesn't matter where you are
Minutes and seconds robbing us blind
Your face and memory - carved into stone
One day we'll meet again
Believe in time you'll understand

Put to a brutal test
Adolescent at an early age
I feel your anger - family is torn apart
Endless suffering - condemn this evil
The comfort in this - oh fuckin' sweet revenge

I'm thinking - I'm dreaming - 
I'm thinking - I'm drowning

Without a warning - I severed the ties
Deep regret - done for the good
Circumstance you'll understand

Take a look in the mirror
What do you see?
One day questions answered
As time is passing by

Put to a brutal test
Adolescent at an early age
I feel your anger - family is torn apart
Endless suffering - condemn this evil
The comfort in this - oh fuckin' sweet revenge

I'm thinking - I'm dreaming - 
I'm thinking - I'm drowning

Silver spoon in mouth 
Not by his own choice
Passion in his heart
Lives by family ways
Wished he could have changed
Now it's just too late
The choices that are made - how could he have known?
Regret in his heart

Yeah
Lived it, loved it, left it, want it, gave it

To live the way I do 
Is not the way for most
To love the way I love
Is a fantasy to most
Ignorance to sacrifice
Is the common way to go
Everyone thinking - everyone saying
Gotta get it the easy way

Lived it, loved it, left it, want it, gave it
Yeah

Low down - high tide
Come crashing down inside
We know - the way
Try to bring you up today
Needle drops without a stain
Never hurts to dig a vein
Only way to free your mind
Lying down the world is blind

Low down - high tide
Separate the weak from wise
We know - the way
Try to bring you up today
Never falling down again
Never showing what we've said
Only way to free your mind
Lying down the world is blind

Voices ring in my head
Telling me I'm far from dead
No one sees the burning life
No one knows it flows inside

In a lonesome wasteland
With a worried mind
Looking for some answers
Mankind left behind
A land laid out before me
hardened to the core
I wish that I could go back
to the place I was before
sometimes listening so loud and clear
Seems to fade away
I don't lie to look at you
please just stay away
My vision tends to fray so fast
I don't even care
Wasteland Wasteland
Double up cross in this wasteland 
Double up cross in this wasteland 
Double up cross in this wasteland

The dreams are so real and the lies are so real
To be naive to the almight dollar
In our own minds could be our demise if we did not
believe in our mind and our power we see all the greed
and our progress denied
Our belief is Benin onto you
Faith within us adversity seen before
Now with the strength with our people we burn

Burning the bridges down
Burn them down to the ground

Do you believe in the death of a dream how could you
even allow it
We won´t be denied by our own pride so leave us in peace
rather than war this war will be fought with hearts and
our minds you will not win so don´t even try
Now this known so you leave us alone and all we can say
is we burn

Burning the bridges down
Burn them down to the ground

Loss...I so badly want you to feel
Pain...the lack there of is so unfair
Blind...vengeful thoughts consume inside
Hate...I never knew I could hate this way
Rage...so for real I could kill you myself
Die...for you to die is what keeps me alive
Fear...the fear that you feel is very for real
Why...can´t I be the one behind the gun?

Justice is served why do I still feel all the rage, the
hate, ,the loss, the pain
All this whole time your death was to heal my rage, my
hate my loss, my pain
Loss...I so badly want you to feel
Pain...the lack there of is so unfair
Blind...vengeful thoughts consume inside
Hate...I never knew I could hate this way

May you rest in un-peace and feel all the wrath the
wrath of Satan himself as your sould slowly burns and
burns and burns I wish I could be there to see it myself

Vengence is Mine

Justice is served why do I still feel all the rage, the
hate, ,the loss, the pain
All this whole time your death was to heal my rage, my
hate my loss, my pain

Vengeance is Mine

Sometimes I ask myself why my thoughts are so insecure
These people who love will elave me and drain me until I'm un-pure
I try to hold onto my thoughts buried in the past
But they come back and haunt me they pick at my brain
Peeling back all the wounds exposed

I've tried-to put these past me
I've tried-ignored all the facts
I've tried-inject fuel in my veins
I've tried-this truce will not stand

I search and I look for excuses reasons just to see your face
These feelings we had for each other have vanished without a trace
One day we'll meet again when my conscience is clean of the filth
Accusation made me this devil inside me it grips me and won't let me go

Denied-the chance to say sorry
Denied-the love that I give
Denied-combust fuel in my veins
Denied-mutual feelings are gone

To do to die to live to cry
Is there a reason why I have to die?
To know the pain is to go insane
A free man I once was I live with the guilt that is not my own

My cries for life all go in vain
I'm caught in the system of no remorse
Dead in the eyes of my peers
Now my life will not end in years
Only to really be denied

Life.... Does anyone care for my life?
Denied.... Justice is served but denied
Die.... In due time you will die
Truth.... Only then you will know the truth

To do to die to live to cry
Is there a reason why I have to die?
To know the pain is to go insane
A free man I once was I live with the guild that is not my own

Hold on strong never fear their void
Never fear their void
Been denied for so long
All my faith keeps true pace
You all said that I would soon fail
But I always knew where I belonged
Keep to myself

Now you want to hear me
I hear you want to sense me
Since you want to know me
I know you want to regret me

Eyes of life vision strength
Now complete, what's it like to feed on beliefs
Cause when I look in your eyes now I know why I
Keep to myself
Keep to myself

Now you want to hear me
I hear you want to sense me
Since you want to know me
I know you want to regret me

Keep to myself
Keep to myself

Dare to embrace this wrongful healing
I've tried to change cause life has it's ways
Bent with I'm bent with this feeling thoughts start to
drain me bury the reasons why
Restless my mind seems so restless torn from the strain
confused and deranged
Sick with I'm sick from this pleading reflection's weight
with great frustration

Trapped inside myself
Caught again, ,never ending
Please take this all away

Countless attempts to push forward
Hell lives within me death seems to haunt me
Fear of losing this handle
I'll always hate this I'll never shake this cursed

Born with his innocence
Nurtured only to serve
To serve as a mother's son
Childhood denied
Had to become a man while still only a child
Education taken away made to work instead

Sun up to sun down
Money earned money spent
Not in his name or by his choice
Change left in his pocket
Saved to no end one day to buy his dream
A simple dream earned

Dreams not allowed here
Born to be his mother's son
His mother's slave
The abuse mistaken, mistaken for love
Deeply scarred, but not for life

A true-life champion he made it through
Brought into this life and was taught to fail
Where others failed he never quit
Mistakes were made along the way
My father's son I'll always be

An open hand to an open heart
A new beginning to an ended start
A time for passion a time for lust
You challenge your lies with my trust
An endless battle to say the worst
My turn to get the last word in first
I´ve proven myself time and again
Your walls come crumbling down, down

Opportunidad I gave
Opportunidad you took away from
Opportunidad I gave
Opportunidad you took away from me

Build me up with empty promise just to watch me fail
You'll keep this deep inside of you cause you never really knew me at all
Must I suffer through and through with all the doubt that fills this room
Drown the questions in my mind blind myself with endless time

You said you'd always be there you neglect the way I feel
Should I plunge into my dark hole is this what makes you heal
Lifeless heart which tears and pours
Reminded scarres can't you see I rip myself from you

[chorus]
Open the gates let Hell find a way
Open the gates let Hell find it's way

Underneath I can't escape the numbness spreads in me
Can you sense the end is so near?
When you take me to that blacked place
All my demons keep me locked beneath

Rip myself from you

I knew I'd slowly vanish between two worlds and here
Will you ever wonder when I'm dead and gone?
Fading light, close my eyes, I've been waiting, take me away

I don't care to feel
Stand myself up right
Left it up to reach
Now my need turns sick

My world of one speak

How far down is down
What I've found to take
Dark years mold in shape
Build death slow within
Take my stance with pride
Put this end to life

Trapped battled within
embrace the sin
on the brink of death, this is a war
fought in my mind
locked in my lonely cell

there's no way out
i've gone blind
can i scream

your broken back is playing me
living your live without a spine
cant breathe, wont live
without any voice

what's holding you back your killing me
blood in my eyes is turning black

Images await by the absence of light
falling further in, descending in my pain
the presence of eevil remains
now my body reeks of sweat, its drencheed with regret
its cold and lame, my visions getting faint
searching deep within, nothing feels the same
my spirit proceeds
desperate to dodge the fear;
my mission is still uncleear;
deciding on which way to steer
your options will disappear

breath of doom obvious horror
taste of blood, in holy fire
waste of slow decay
fall way from your god
misled into false thoughts
shut out i hope you pray

desperate fortunes, unachieved
followed through in gross deceit
the result of misbelief

in the dark i'll wait counting the loss of time
does this mean i'm dead, is there no one i can
find the poison lies in my veins, broken bones
will set so I still regret, the exception to relive
a wreck of a soul to you I give

emptiness is full in my body
shattered feelings spill through every pore
I sit in the dark corner
of my mind wondering
will i ever be, will we ever see
it's not understood, the way it should be
can we perceive

i've seen better days, hanging on the cross
lifeless misery, loathing for human loss
i've seen better days, blinded by misbelief
through time will we achieve
tangled by fallacy

Count on the blessings received
eluding past fate in deceit
as I breathe inside tomorrow

I've been waiting all these days, to capture the flight
riding up, i'm closing on these gates
victory is nearing our fate

can't you see me rise, you cant stop the climb
living sacrifice, so we've paid the price
Never, be your own enemy
Hold on, remain in yourself
always

I don't understand why
you could lose faith so soon
we will persevere through
feed the line twisted untrue
see and realize how high
be the existence to fly
climb the infinite unwind
how can you be so blind
to the things before you

perseverance is my way of life, i don't 
question my road when i see the light a light
once dim is now shining right, bright
enough to keep up the fight to give up now
is so absurd, we've come so far farther than
most lack of vision fucking open your eyes,
only then you will realize

Take hold live and feel
the threshold, the will to build and restore
the dying old insane my role is lame
now the game is name your price
your soul pretends to stand the vise
lessons be learned, tis time to give in
the torture is cold, the threshold wins

suffering torturing

before you die again, make sure your life is sin
these blessings wont take away
the life your doomed today
the threshold wins again
expressions reveal your wounds
your visions are now entombed
deciding your fate is soon

hide forever pain
time is killing me
try to live again
dive to death my friend
this is the end, the end of your time
you had your turn, watch your live pass by

another twisted end, shut out let me in take
down break within hold fast the deal begins
objection, rejection past off unvalued claim
deception, the morals name takedown

everything i've owned, you've lost
breaking every bone, you laugh
embarrassed by the tone, un rest
closing ties that fold, mistrust
since my brides been sold

I'm in the seat, what you want to be
grow with me feel free, I'm flying free

living in the depths of what you cant see before you
do what you need to succeed
stab and kill at will
rise inside and find i will be waiting
I want to kill you, I want to kill you

trusting you is like a disease
my fists will cure you
no sympathy as you live and breathe
you cant bring me down
die right now your time is running
this bind your burning, your soul is turning

your a two faced devil cant trust you
try to bring me down 
I hate you

dead you are in my eyes
my pain thoroughs 
truth behind your lies
consumes your innocent cries
run and hide, I will find you, I will deny you

seeking redemption for loss in the past
defining my structure, my strength to surpass
something is taking over me
losing my sight, I cannot see

I'm gonna beat you down
if you dont turn away
I'm gonna take you back
and replace the first day

Instant aggression, this shade you know
cursed by appearance,
then the feelings will grow
something is taking over me
losing your sight you still can't see

this is haunting me, this cannot be
this is not me, just let it be

who gives a fuck