The Berzerker
ALBUMES / CANCIONES / LETRAS
The uncreative juices flow from all but a selective few and even those they tend to be wasted, you have taken pride in a lifeform that you think you know but what you do not know is it's rotting, it is so unfortunate that this is how our world must be but why must I accept reality, is this reality? how can I exist amongst you people when I feel this way when all that seems so wrong is everywhere, A world without substance feeling so superior I am discontent with lies and with ineffective lives, should I grieve for mankind or live out my life to be free of pain I'll want it back again, so to be one with man I must be false to myself any effort's futile for my life is just mine, I have visions of worlds that are unparalleled my attempts are in vain to walk this earth without shame, for being human, This is my reality and you do not have to accept it you are only human with excuses and complaints, couldn't you be something greater come on now you know the answer you are so absorbed with your own pathetic lives, why should I feel pity for you I don't think I know the answer, have you ever thought about opening your closed eyes, what is it that you're afraid of, don't you want to see yourself, couldn't bear to see yourself as I see you.
Always living on the line of what you think is right or wrong, there was a time when even I could not bear to be alone, needing someone or something that is not mine to call my own, to have and hold, severing the only line of trust that you once thought you had, now that I can see past you I can start to be a man, death to me seems no mistake for I have yet to hate, so can you see my pain, can you feel my pain, can you see my... this, is my world, and I see, what you don't, forever, wanting more, life breathes, from our soul, looking into bloodshot eyes mesmerized they can't look back, slowly turning in my mind is the visions of your death, finding truth amongst my lies but not accepting now I grow, and gain control, opening to inner sanctums that you do not understand, having no respect for life and taking it with my bare hands, always searching with contempt for ways to rid my pounding head, from this place, This, is my world, and I see, what you don't, forever, wanting more, life breathes, from our souls.
You're mine, were blatant with your kind, I have paid, I'm taken with your face, I can taste your flesh, can taste your world, to feel the pain of making... why can't you breathe? I've made you writhe, in pain, the pain of making... Why just take my life? why not take it all? I can taste your flesh, can taste your world, to feel the pain of making... why can't you breathe? I've made you writhe, in pain, the pain of making...
Torn, apart, her face, ripped from her fleshy skull, her scalp, degloved, what an horrific site, with inches from her life, and all that's left inside, confusion's in her mind, her luck's run out, Tormented cries coming from inside, ride with her into the state of... a brutal act but she did well, to tolerate the anguish of that night, the anguish of that night Torn, apart, her face, ripped from her fleshy skull, her scalp, degloved, what an horrific site, with inches from her life, and all that's left inside, confusion's in her mind, her luck's run out.
Devouring my last rites, without thoughts of changing, to have my life taken away, inheriting the skills of, the dead to hunt and live, the dead to hunt and die, because that is our only way, Never understanding, tomorrow never comes, waiting and believing, that they have got it wrong, why are we made to suffer, for their ignorance, underestimated, to me it makes no sense, Devouring my last rites, without thoughts of changing, to have my life taken away.
Arms, legs, feet, hands all limbs are gone, flesh torn life loss blown to black dust, torn earth seeks death blood is on ground, feel the grim pain it is your fault, once maimed you fall force is so strong, got what you wish? last chance for more, wounds all open to the heavens, skull is intact limbs won't grow back, no end is near used to be bold, can not get help, chanced your life well? eyes are so blind to the horror, feel the grim pain it is your fault, call to arms you do not have, cause torn flesh is now all that's left, and I can see your juices drain out, like a body that is apart, got what you get I can see that, life calls to me and paints grim death, what we live in I do not know, I'm not a god but I think so, you've had your chance used to have hope, lost now in hell feel your life fall, not one to run I'll bare this world, I am so strong your life is gone, no time for weak you are a sheep, can not get help no hope for you, now I tell you your chance is gone, time for you too, I'll burn in hell, my chance is here with your lost kind, from the start you've had not much time, not one to run I'll bare this world, I am so strong your life is gone, Got what you get I can see that, life calls to me and paints grim death, what we live in I do not know, I'm not a god but I think so, you've had your chance used to have hope, lost now in hell feel your life fall, not one to run I'll bare this world, I am so strong your life is gone, no time for weak you are a sheep, can not get help no hope for you, now I tell you your chance is gone, time for you too, I'll burn in hell, my chance is here with your lost kind, from the start you've had not much time, not one to run I'll bare this world, I am so strong your life is gone.
Greenish discoloration of the abdominal wall, odour of putrefaction is noticeable, the eyeballs become soft, Irregular green patches appear over of neck, chest and lower extremities, a bloody, frothy purge may pour from the mouth, The abdomen is distended with gas, the corneas have collapsed, the discoloration is becoming red, due to the pressure of the decomposed blood, Body surface is mottled, red, green, brown the eyes bulge, and the tongue swells to fill the mouth, and protrudes beyond the teeth.
Degradation, I don't want your, rhinoplasty, I don't need you, not any more, though I am a perverted man, disproportioned, version of a, normal man, dirty man, any surgery can not get the god dam filth out of my head, Maladjusted, not because of, my appearance, you can't see past, how I was born, are you blinded by the way you live? violated, version of a, normal man, dirty man, reconstruction, reformation, reaching out into a shallow world, My normal features, they gaze with impunity, I am an animal, don't want to be a man, I wish destruction on every man I see, am I a man, am I a man, am I? to forgive them means loss of my memory, can I decide between a psycho and a citizen, no chance of that I want death to my enemy, I'm not a man, I'm not a man, How can you think of me? judge of me? watch me? all I want to be is, is to be free, Degradation, I don't want your, rhinoplasty, I don't need you, though I am a perverted man, disproportioned, version of a, normal man, dirty man, any surgery can not get the god dam filth out of my head.
Slit down from the thorax, to free all, the gas that should not be there, the cerebrum will have not survived, upon close examination, from the chest to the skull, has show the movement of fluids that the surface refused, co-injections have failed to prepare the remains, there's much too much to be saved, decomposition has claimed, what was an animal frame with it's organs and brain, will be dissected and then reduced to mush, It's not to be chopped to bring you power, it's only to be devoured, what is it now that you throw doubt upon, don't ask of things you not meant to have or know, have or know, Pre-embalming purge, and rotting pigmentation, extra firming fluids, and hardening compounds, nasal aspiration.
It is february 1998, with too many mindless bodies, walking the face of the planet, and too many mindfull bodies, without enough motivation, to do anything constructive with their lives, I despise these people, in a way I can not verbally express, my hatred for humanity has reached an all time high, I believe I am a higher power and a greater being, than our all too common society, Lately I have asked myself should I concede defeat and conform to our commercialist society, surely it would make my life on this world easier to bear, but when I get near my lowest moments, I remember... Why, I hate the world, and everything, that is inside, I remember why, that I despise everything that is not I.
I have often thought to myself Why some people don't eat flesh Is it the morals that we're taught? Lurking deep beneath our skin Bodies that are constant sources Rich in power and in strength Human form is far removed from What we like to think of as : Where did the concept of eating human flesh? Become so repulsive from? There's got to be and even better way For others to think of what they might Place upon their plate without disregard I wish someone could someday explain to me this strange concept For like others I am mortal and don't have all the answers.
We are what's left behind I can feel It call my name These worlds that I have taken Will stay with me as lies No they won't leave their victim I know that we are on their list of deeds The decomposing lifeform Our tortured earthly souls are waiting to be freed Their day has only just begun And any killing bird stays to the bitter end They take the pain That you have given to me If only I could bring against this world the feeling of myself now choking it's not safe you're running from help If I was blind I'd see the strain of being here embodied to be a victim of the earth and now I'm trapped inside. It's too late for us now, the wheels are in motion Hear broken regrets, I fear you're out of time, Death is coming, your life's a failure, Now we're watching as you die.
Wanted to be the first technician on a cranial autopsy The principles and practice of embalming Examination of all the head and before the incision Cavities might allow Blood to escape through the veins causing change To the original condition of the brain An incision, is first made through, the scalp flaps and in line with the skull, a double V shaped, cut is then made, by sawing through, the bones of the skull Open the skull Dura is spilt The brain is removed For examination By cutting it loose With a long bladed knife Tightly ligate The ends of the veins Drill a small hole Through the back of the skull Puncture the scalp Insert through this hole A section of tubing To be used as a drain Hold this in place With a safety pin inside the: Since it is physically imposible To prevent all leakage in to the skull We have developed a procedure which eliminate problems If offers the hope that, what was required to fix the head is gone There's no frustration to show our work once it's strengthened Drill and wire the calvarium to the skull on both sides Twist the wires tightly so the skull will be unable to slip No autopsy may be made unless authority has been secured Coroner may order an autopsy to seek cause of death Or if the causeof his death is not yet apparent An incision, is first made through, the scalp flaps and in line with the skull, a double V shaped, cut is then made, by sawing through, the bones of the skull.
There'll be a time Where I can take what they've taught and make it work THIS would be a better place if you could free you mind of thought THOUGH to be in this place life, has abandoned you WORLD that we now live in has changed so rapidly THERE'S no need for equality equality All the dreams, ideals you fought for, waiting now for someone else It's not real, that you're feeling parts of life's exterior I can see you body rot, gaze upon your cornea No one wins we end together, values, visions dead forever HATE to be nothing why do you abandon me WORDS without actions lies they mean nothing CAN'T you all see the light that waves in front of you THIS could be a mirror of the only ever way that WE'VE KNOWN I can take what they've taught and make it work THIS would be a better place if you could free you mind of thought THOUGH to be in this place life, has abandoned you WORLD that we now live in has changed so rapidly THERE'S no need for equality equality
Is death freedom from this world? The one's who knew you will soon FORGET That you have now attained WHAT YOU WANTED So why should it be HAUNTING YOU? As the generations past and time leaves you behind Existence will be now erased from other people's minds so that once a living being affecting many other lives I can see that all you feel is PLEASURE Are you unaware that there is comfort found in pain? The endlessness of all the thoughts compounding in your head shows you the tragedy of willingly, wanting to be here. Existence is meaningless in OUR WORLD Hurt that frequents your mind a constant memory Of a life that is not always WANTING To be free of all the PAIN AND HATRED I can almost feel it WHY CAN'T YOU Death is to be free of and to cause ultimate pain Life is fleeting moments of regrets and poor decision making So many untruths to sort through never knowing why One day I shall understand why WE DON'T Can't understand the mortality of man? Why do I use words of hate to fund communication? Does the perfect world exist already, in my mind I can see it, I can feel it Is death freedom from this world? The one's who knew you will soon FORGET That you have now attained WHAT YOU WANTED So why should it be HAUNTING YOU? Death is to be free of and to cause ultimate pain Life is fleeting moments and regrets and poor decision making So many untruths to sort through never knowing why One day I shall understand why WE DON'T Are you unaware that there is comfort found in pain? The endlessness of all the thoughts compounding in your head shows you the tragedy of willingly, wanting to be here. Existence is meaningless OUR WORLD
I see, No chance Relying on myself I take away Responsibility They drain my life I purge the pot they breed in First I must take pride and not ponder A day to stay Don't underestimate I take away The task that you failed I ache but I, I fought them till it didn't matter For they must change now or before I burst, Those around me Are incomprehensible Is harder to bear With my backache Fortunately I take great pride (I'm) before my time No demise Compromise I can see you're watching me But could you even understand my pain Watching, what is it in your brain that never gets it? One day I'll disappear to the answer locked in my Head that you'll never see of feel, A consumer The more the body is pierced, tortured, wounded, humiliated the more complete his mans victory over pain, the greater man victory over pain , the greater his victory over the flesh. I see that they That people are a plague No sympathy No liability They drain my life We'll see the life they're living Once I stop all I'm doing for them.
No one survives Against hateful minds I can feel the pressure growing Last time you walked away This time there will be no one there waiting to take your place Think not that the world now ones you Think not of your despair Rise up and take their power do not hesitate or fear For them a distant memory Waiting with baited breath I see through parts of your life Why do you lie to me? One of the reasons why, the movement, began to move executions behind prison's, is the effect that it would have on young people, their parents would take them to witness an execution, thinking that perhaps it would have some salutary effect, they would hold em up so that they could get a good glimpse and all of that, but I found I guess 30 or 40 cases, where after witnessing an execution a child of tender years, would hang a playmate or hang themselves. We must distrust each, other it is our best defense From those who seek to specialize in betrayal There's no comfort in freedom For what we seek is pain You're life has now come undone I'll watch you beg for:
The box was taken to the edge of the earth There it will be safe from all the evils that exist on this world To feel all of life has been talked about you're in trouble You've got yourself to blame Forces are pushing away With forty people You fought to free your demons He tested your mind To be the leader Shame made you crawl back again from me to breathe And be a man. Born without the concept of hate Taught to act afraid I've seen your last mistake Start to learn though pain What you taken before's What you mustn't break I've seen you last mistake There has to be a better way Better way I need more power to hate Turned around by failure I've seen you last mistake Turned around by: Man's brutality and his in-inability in feel empathy, with misery is one of mankind worst sins it is the very basis of human degradation, and if man can create so much suffering, what right does he have to complain when he himself suffers? Born without the concept of hate Taught to act afraid I see your last mistake Carved in my sore head Thought that people would learn But to my surprise I've seen your last mistake We have to find a better way A better way I need more power to hate Turned around by failure I've seen you last mistake Turned around by:
Memory apart after opening Feel nothing; The dream is gone Spinning in a mind overflow, Dream what reality cannot Ever make you understand A vision to bring back the sense of the world Deranged senses Become defenses These are the visions I don't want to keep The mind tortures itself constantly without meaning Painless Means out of me Every trace Burn the skin Sow the heart with salt All thought gone Painless Means out of me Every trace Burn the skin Sow the heart with salt All thought gone Numb is peace Numb is peace This is the dawn in which the prey take courage and turns on the predator it is the dawn in which the underdog finds the strength to rebel nothing disoriented them mighty more than the attack of those how have always feared them in the past. Can't allow One to be What we cannot We'd hurt somehow They saw your dreams Which means they saw your fear Which means that they must disappear Hold the matches Scared is tough When you're numb The fear's enough When you're tired Sleep forever We have work now These are the visions I don't want to keep Painless Means out of me Every trace Burn the skin Sow the heart with salt All thought gone Painless Means out of me Every trace Burn the skin Sow the heart with salt All thought gone Numb is peace Numb is peace
In the brain we've found a role Detach your life from mind control Evade life of being ruled DESTROY the parts that lie unused Permanence Eternity Surgery Will set you free Vacant eyes and lack of care Now one with humanity HATE, PURE, PURE, ANSWER, NO-ONE EVER, AGAIN, PURE, HATE, PURE,CHILDREN SEW THEIR MINDS SHUT, ANSWER, NO ONE EVER. In the brain Is a directive Brain found to be Grossly defective The soul, it sees, Sees through the eyes, It's time is up Lobotomize Mutilation Drilling holes in Trepanation Evolution Ten percent Is all we use You need it like a hole in the head
I can't take this Forever I've wanted to be a lot more than just a person Not to play on the side of the humans We're forced to live and die in this system I can't see the logic that we are taught Pleasure is attained through freedom Pain is the answer Try to escape from the body Welcome to the paradox Can not take this I thought that pain was my savior Living a lie from what I'm thinking I'm chasing my life which must end right here How can I free myself from this world that I'm forced to live in? We'll see at the end that this idea freedom that you hold to yourself, can never Retrieve all the things that were meant to be if they're causing us pleasure I want to be the pain causing the change to our race When it hurts you I want to be the pain causing the change to our life When it hits I want to be what I am, not the circumstance of how I was born I can not take this, I will not take this I want to be the pain causing the change to our race I want to be the pain causing the change to our life I want to be what I am, not the circumstance of how I was born I can not take this, I will not take this Why should I take anymore
Excised and anatomised, deviscerated disarray The torso diverged with pride Deftly amputated, evulsed limbs now defunct The trunk imbrued, tatty stumps used as lugs For a chondrin puzzle so quaint Head and body decollate A heaving mass so quiescent... Scattered and scrambled, your teasement grows - A bloody caricature to make whole A squirming grisly jigsaw, detrital fragments fit so snug - That missing piece will leave you stumped Totally disassembled, nicely sliced and diced - A human being this once resembled Real cranium teaser, carved from flesh and bone - So mystifying... Battered and diffused with placating blows - A human jigsaw to make whole A sequacious pattern which once fitted so snug - Joining together each dubious lump Ravaged disassembly, neatly cubed and diced - A cold mannequin once reassembled Astute brain teaser, incorporate flesh and bone - So mortifying... An incessant game - methodically made With each cumulative piecing - of commensated meat... Bi-manual reconstruction, eldritch problem complete A convened effigy A pathological toy, each chunk rigorously Inter mortis locking, as you pathogenically rot Such a perplexing task To fit the remains in the casket Uliginous mess so quiescent... An incessant game - methodically made With each cumulative piece - of commensated meat...
Logic thoughts rule my world and they're running through my head Only seeing things the way you think they should be Upholding honor and respect is the way I live To have trust is the hardest when I've seen it all before I've known for some time that you're one of them Wanting nothing and you're giving nothing more I've dealt with your kind and you're all the same Let me tell you that you're not alone Only seeing things the way you think they should be Never knowing never feeling never hurting me? To have trust is the hardest when I've seen it before And this is what I have to deal with now Wanting nothing and you're giving nothing more I never thought I'd be the one to have to lay the blame I've dealt with your kind and you're all the same Let me tell you that you're not alone Many I know, think just as you do Of nothing of no one... exception... yourself Biding my time and not getting to close This is not how I will now die Committed to nothing you walk with closed eyes I'm cleansing the world of the scum that resides Not fearing the ones that will cause me disgust I know that I am all that I have left Time waits for nothing, no one Never could understand why I'll retain my dignity Never given you a reason to lie Logic thoughts rule my world and they're running through my head Only seeing things the way you think they should be Upholding honor and respect is the way I live To have trust is the hardest when I've seen it all before I've known for some time that you're one of them Wanting nothing and you're giving nothing more I've dealt with your kind and you're all the same Let me tell you now that you're not alone.
Questioning standards, striving forward I don't understand the connection between most people Lonely from the world and because of the world Why do I want more than most of us? And why won't I just settle for less? I'm the only one with the reasons and answers why Symptoms of hatred, I see an altered state Hallucinations of the mind, as you argue with yourself Dissention to madness, is not far from hand Independence you once had delusions deluded What I say I do and I do what I say I know it all too well, I see it everyday So let me tell you now I know you're not alone To make this very clear I think that you are way beyond my help Year after year I tried and trained not to assimilate But only to find myself even more alone As I ponder about life and my existence I feel a resolve that you're not here with me Walking alone through the wastelands of destruction And as I explore I find you living there Symptoms of hatred, I see an altered state Hallucinations of the mind, as you argue with yourself Dissention to madness, is not far from hand Independence you once had delusions deluded
As I look into your eyes and see you standing there It is I that sees through the haze Can you see clearly or is it now all about you? Here's what I know it's all that I know Is that you're not what you claim You're what I know it's all that I know And I'm not done just yet Can you see clearly or is it now all about you? Opened eyes used to stare but never to see The ground opens up and swallows you whole You're out of touch Out of time Out of lies Out of luck Feelings they lie when you compromise Expecting your world to give all that you need Waiting on others is all that I see Others are feeding you lies so you disbelieve Here's what I know it's all that I know Is that you're not what you claim You're what I know it's all that I know And I'm not done just yet Can you see clearly or is it now all about you?
Embers burn and light the way to take the steps of those before you Fearing life and taking what was never yours is far from graceful Now you'll suffer, I'll burn all the memories that you've held on to Wanting, waiting, wasting all your life with such anticipation Blowing out the flames of life it's time Burning all your flesh I watch the flames turn white Didn't even ever think to ask you why Will this stop the lies? Thinking that your life had meaning That it was someting great Why don't I choose to believe You will never convince me Burn the hatred Burn the evil Burn the bitch It's almost done Burn the lies Burn the deception Burn it all I'm far from done Always wanting never learning and you never made the time Till your life's sudden ending came and now you live to die Trapped in what you thought "it could never ever be worse" Than the life full of misery that you had upon this earth Searching for the ultimate escape you think you've found Now you're just a rotting corpse as you lie there in the ground This is all is and now you've only had to die This all there is and now there's nothing You're... The only one You... The only one When you're safe we'll hunt you down, Ruin you All the things that I've never wanted or had to Burn the hatred Burn the evil Burn the bitch It's almost done Burn the lies Burn the deception Burn it all I'm far from done Learning nothing, doing nothing Feeling nothing, what's the point? All this time that I've stood by you You're a shell all dead inside This is all you'll get from me This is all I have for you Why must I continue to... You are now NOTHING Burn the hatred Burn the evil Burn the bitch It's almost done Burn the lies Burn the deception Burn it all I'm far from done Always wanting never learning you never made the time Till your life's sudden ending came and now you live to die Trapped in what you thought "it could never ever be worse" Than the life full of misery that you had upon this earth Searcing for the ultimate escape you think you've found Now you're just a rotting corpse as you lie there in the ground This is all is and now you've only had die This is all there is and now there's nothing Burn the hatred Burn the evil Burn the bitch It's almost done Burn the lies Burn the deception Burn it all I'm far from done Burn the hatred Burn the evil Burn the bitch It's almost done Burn the lies Burn the deception Burn it all I'm far from done Will this stop the lies?
We are not dead My life is much different to yours, I can assure you You know no one like me On the outside we all look the same But behind closed doors is where we all really live Disadvantaged by your thoughts and never wonder why You can make the difference is it that you wish to die Look into yourself and you will always find the light Thoughts of your insanity are ruining my mind Evolving minds so dangerous to all that is and ever will be It is only when the quiet times fall upon me There is too much power in my single thoughts alone Looking for someone something to share my inner thoughts with My thoughts serve me well Relief from Suffering The taste of hatred on my tongue As I walk through this world I make better choices and think things through Never to walk away from problems of old Look in yourself you'll never find Why or what controls your life Your inner child your inner mind Taken from you now's the time Thoughts can not lie only decieve Those of us that who have never grieve There's no more time there's nothing Could you wait until tomorrow?
Always wanting but never learning Submit to your plans for my waking life To be one with the world I cannot grasp It's beyond me Sterile life with a forceful nature Many times I have seen this before What more could you possibly fail at Is it just you? My life taken from me, to follow your lead so blindly Submit, submit you're wasting your life You dumped on me, the last blame I'll take betrayal, betrayer You'll burn in the pits of hell I ask for nothing but what I expect from myself Suppress that feeling, I'll watch you die With no drive and no hope no motivation running through your veins Push me closer, Push me closer Frightened that I will one day awake and see I'm just like you It's getting closer, getting closer Mad at the world for bringing you down Never giving reasons why none can be found Could have been a leader could have been a someone Could have been should have been you could of proved me wrong It's beyond me Always wanting but never learning Submit to your plans for my waking life To be one with the world I cannot grasp It's beyond me Sterile life with a forceful nature Many times I have seen this before What more could you possibly fail at Is it just you? My life taken from me, to follow your lead so blindly Submit, submit you're wasting your life You dumped on me, the last blame I'll take Betrayal, betrayer
Indisposed your worse thoughts your nightmares upon you There's nothing I can do but take it all from you We must stop this epidemic It's not a glossary of the embalming process As you rot and take on a smell Putrid stench all over... That's the reason that you've had enough? Why is death treated as something you must learn to revere Why are all our bodies left to rot Why should we thankful for your false appreciation Why must we know everything about life Constrain the limbs and suspect my containment A grizzly scene... blood is all I see now Such a laborious task and a jumbled mess To confront and clean up as I look deep inside Why is death treated as something you must learn to revere Why are all our bodies left to rot Why should we be thankful for your false appreciation Why do we never think, question it inspect it Upon inspection I saw nothing out of place Saw nothing that would require more time I know that it's just a job for some people but You can't see it the way I see it it is my life It's my life Indisposed your worst thoughts your nightmares upon you There's nothing I can do but take it all from you We must stop this epidemic It's not a glossary of the embalming process As you rot and take on a smell Putrid stench all over... That's the reason that you've I had enough? There is no god!
Why hate? I'm a strong believer Why feel? It's just as I see Why care? What more can I do? Why LIVE? Is it all that I need? Why want? Searching my feelings for Why fear? For all that is numb Why hate? It is all that I've ever known? Why HATE? It is all that I'll ever know? Display it in another form All I ask is nothing but what I expect from my fucking self What is blame? What is blame? I have given all that you have given, I know you the fearful Always wanting never learning why must I take all the blame? Why complicate life? The world waits for no man and nothing Why be frightened of my view of you? Blood running through your mind is now numb Wanting but waiting and wasting your final chance Follow the one, follow the one, follow Why complicate life? The world waits for no man and nothing Why be frightened of my view of you? Blood running through your mind is now numb Wanting but waiting and wasting your final chance Follow the one, follow the one, follow?
The act of death is certain, it's your right to want to want to know What lies beyond this world and what awaits your future now Waiting for the afterlife Waiting for your time to die Waiting for the afterlife Waiting till the time is right Waiting for the afterlife Waiting, wanting, searcing, suffering Waiting for the afterlife Time is upon you time to die Why don't stop to ponder, why you're afraid of death Why don't you stop and wonder, what could be worse than this Now you're alone your life has ceased I can feel it All of your hatred has come undone I've watched you live, I've watched you die I have seen it And now it's over I can finally move on Your time spent here is over now you deal with it No coming back, never living, I know To earn freedom, you must let go, I now know it Of all the hatred, for it's time to move on Waiting for the afterlife Waiting for your time to die Waiting for the afterlife Waiting till the time is right Waiting for the afterlife Waiting, wanting, searching, suffering Waiting for the afterlife Time is upon you time to die Why don't stop to pnder, why you're afraid of death Why don't you stop and wonder, what could be worse than this I can't stand by and watch you wait for an after Life that has been promised to you by your faith Why would you believe such nonsense without any Shred of proof or existence beyond our world
The fear inside my hate filled mind The concept of eternal life... Never could you understand That life won't take you by the hand Wait... you stop to ponder I'm leaving you behind, Behind Opened eyes used to stare, but never see I've given all I can, now set me free Why ask for my Help you're on your own Why should I try? You're just a waste of time Why should I care? No-one could tell you so Why won't you listen No-one will ever know What I know Help you're on our own I shouldn't try You're just a waste of time I shouldn't care No-one could tell you so I shouldn't listen No-one will ever know That I know You are a guest Take, Away, Fear, Burn, Away, Ask, Clear to see Hate, Scorn, Pain, Torn, No, Fault, Fear is real Take, Away, Fear, Burn, Away, Ask, Clear to see Hate, Scorn, Pain, Torn, No, Fault, Fear is real Cause I Never could have known Never will I show you Never could of seen All that has ceased Never needed more Never can I forgive Never hated more You never learned a thing Take, Away, Fear, Burn, Away, Ask, Clear to see Hate, Scorn, Pain, Torn, No, Fault, Fear is real Take, Away, Fear, Burn, Away, Ask, Clear to see Hate, Scorn, Pain, Torn, No, Fault, Fear is real Cause I Never could have known Never will I show you Never could of seen All that has ceased Never needed more Never can I forgive Never hated more
So hungry for what I seek I, I, I strive for the best My struggle is all I see I, I, I'll never forget You've seen it hurts me not to fight But in the world it is right Follow what you're told to be truthful And hold on for a rough ride So hungry for what I seek I, I, I strive for the best My struggle is all I see I, I, I'll never forget You've seen it hurts me not to fight But in the world it is right Follow what you're told to be truthful And hold on for a rough ride You've seen it hurts me not to fight But in the world it is right Follow what you're told to be truthful And hold on for a rough ride
You have not lost what is... Lost what it is that I hate so much I've seen it all before and now that you're in front You think that you're the one For all the times that I've done more than I shouldn't have I'm here and now you're scared I'll push you aside and move on with it You'll see that what I am is more than you could wish to ever ask for, ever I've taken all I can and now it's not me that's gone off I'll tell you what I know about all the times I've never fought and won I'm torn over doing all the right things that never seem to matter Can't stop the constant thoughts Body numb but brain still active You've no control My body aches as mind runs wild I'm in constant pain The forces on me are greater than you alone You lie, you lie, you lie Meanings are meanings you take from your life Music is something I use to express My utter disgust with the human race Rally the troops cause you're ready to fight I've made you a person who's willing to die Feelings are rising and burning inside My time is short here it's time to arise You have not lost what is... Lost what it is that I hate so much I've seen it all before and now that you're in front You think that you're the one For all the times that I've done more than I shouldn't have I'm here and now you're scared I'll push you aside and move on with it You'll see that what I am is more than you could wish to ever ask for, ever I've taken all I can and now, it's not me that's gone off I'll tell you what I know about all the times I've never fought and won I'm torn over doing all the right things that never seem to matter You You're not the only one You You act like someone else Your Your time has almost come Your You're now the one I ignore
When I see the rage is building And I know there's nothing stopping Stopping me from changing into What it is almost pure When I'm doing what I'm doing I always take it all so I Continue in this fashion And continue to be free Mother never told me to Respect those that you do not like Why should I be forced to hurt? And take the fucking blame Why are you ignoring me? Where will I get morals from? Mother never taught me And I don't know why Destroy the one that you love Crush all memory of them Appreciate the power that you have and that you wield It's a game of life, play to learn Push in down deep inside Time to create more than you could Ever want Only when the world has stopped Could you be the only one? Another day another time That I've never known When I see humanity Taking all of the life from me I wonder why we bother at all Unlock the door Pray it's finally over Game on Settle down Powerless to stop Freedom is the one you seek Tell me why I you must be free Listen to this fuckin' crap! This is what you want to be? Tell me what you really mean Freedom is the only way to start again I swear there no reality You've taken more then you deserve But no one is impervious When I see the rage is building And I know there's nothing stopping Stopping me from changing into What it is almost pure When I'm doing what I'm doing I always take it all so I Continue in this fashion And continue to be free Mother never told me to Respect those that you do not like Why should I be forced to hurt? And take the fucking blame The world of beauty and of order is disappearing before me I've taken lives In your next life Eye for an eye Just like Judas Eye for an eye I'm surrounded Burn all the dead It's what is deep inside Worship the system That you're following Fuck your religion You follow like sheep I see the way forward You see nothing Time to say fuck it I'm my own man Destroy the one that you love Crush all memory of them Appreciate the power that you have and that you wield It's a game of life, play to learn Push in down deep inside Time to create more than you could Ever want Only when the world has stopped Could you be the only one? Another day another time That I've never known When I see humanity Taking all of the life from me Fuck this stupid shitty world
I've taken torment to a new level of suffering Agony, enemy In my life Few people have let me down And I've learnt The best revenge is served stone cold Creeping up So they'll never see it coming I lift them up Only to bring them crashing down If only I could have all that I wanted To punish the ones that committed these crimes It will make the difference and be savage We've all got the power, in my evil design In my life Few people have let me down And I've learnt The best revenge is served stone cold Creeping up So they'll never see it coming I lift them up Only to bring them crashing down When I've thought is it too much to take I remember that they tried to crush me It's important that they feel the pain More like I get pleasure from it I've gone so long without hurting Whose who've tired there best to fuck me And now I-see they-feel the pain When I place them in purgatory If only I could have all that I wanted To punish the ones that committed these crimes It will make the difference and be savage We've all got the power, in my evil design In my life Few people have let me down And I've learnt The best revenge is served stone Cold Creeping up So they'll never see it coming I lift them up Only to bring them crashing down
Time to reflect Fear the world and all that resides here You feed the one that I must reject It's not for them to lead me It is only false hope Blessing the fearful and praising the living Join the prison and descend to hell Watching and preaching the words with no meanings How to realize it's a doomed existence We're doomed to failure Opened eyes now speak the truth In the end it's all that's left Let me be your serpent and … Raise on up in place of god Interconnect the chosen few Join your hands and praise my life As if your thoughts are pure What is it that makes you feel? More like there's something missing What is the truth? What is the reason to live here? Murder, father, freedom, wisdom What is, it that, makes you feel so sinful? In a world free from From those who wish to harm you If you impose your will You'll burn us all in hell, Hell The book it tells lies and bends the truth And it influences the weak Disaster is breeding here It's not what it seems You want to feel like a god? Well I've got something to say You've got nothing to fear Now that you are mine Time will only go forward There's no limit There's no limit Opened eyes now speak the truth In the end it's all that's left Let me be your serpent and Raise on up in place of god Interconnect the chosen few Join your hands and praise my life As if your thoughts are pure What is it that makes you feel? More like there's something missing What is the truth? What is the reason to live here?
First animals, acclimatised Bones that have changed, never the same You're so low For what it's worth Before no time You'll be walking on your own Isolation, no turning back Untouchable, I'll go on Propaganda So farfetched Your last chance To rule the world Then mammals Are customized Their bodies go through change to survive It's all we know For what's its worth I see there's no evolution Forced to grow Forced to evolved Why resist change Open your mind It's beyond your life It's evolution Why the fuck can't you understand Isolation, no turning back Untouchable, I'll go on Propaganda So farfetched Your last chance To rule the world Isolation No turning back Untouchable I'll go on Propaganda So farfetched Your last chance To rule the world
Preacher, preacher, preacher with a badge You'd better shut your mouth Never, anymore Or I'll shut it for you Another time, another time Or on, another day Never succumbing to… Hit the mark Give it up Full destruction No more reasons, anymore Taking what is mine You're not mine The last one Break the mould I'm taking all I would want It's not the same for you Changing moods have hurt you You're attracted to my hatred It's just a matter of time And I'll take the blame for your failure? Nothing is found Nothing really is ever known Nothing has ever been what it seemed It's just like this and will be like this for fucking ever!!! Preacher, preacher Preacher with a badge You'd better shut your mouth Never, anymore Or I'll shut it for you Another time, another time Or on, another day Never succumbing to… Hit the mark Give it up Full destruction No more reasons, anymore Taking what is mine You're not mine The last one Break the mould I'm taking all I would want It's not the same We're never right It's not the same for you Changing moods have hurt you You're attracted to my hatred It's just a matter of time And I'll take the blame for your failure? Nothing is found Nothing really is ever known Nothing has ever been what it seemed It's just like this and will be like this for fucking ever!!! It's your time
I can't take anymore Can't take anymore Knowing that you're still out there Forced into the corner I'll feel better when I know your life is over It's good of you to summit yourself to this torture When all the rest are thinking, I'm in such agony With force I could take of your respect and honour Watched all your bullshit and I must say it sickened me There was a time when all I could do was sit by And watch the hatred and the pain go by Now, payback has arrived I'll break your fucking jaw Try me and you'll find out for yourself What I'm really like Reality's torn apart Make's me think I'm not part of this Decide, decide Which life should I take? The forces are against you now Decide, decide It's good of you to summit yourself to this torture When all the rest are thinking, I'm in such agony With force I could take of your respect and honour Watched all your bullshit and I must say it sickened me There was a time when all I could do was sit by And watch the hatred and the pain go by Now, payback has arrived I'll break your fucking jaw Try me and you'll find out for yourself What I'm really like Reality's torn apart Make's me think I'm not part of this
Forget your life and all you know I'll see more when all the walls come crashing down White light is your only safety Any other thing might hurt you too much Every time a liar's born There is only one thought and it is murder Anytime anywhere, take your pick Welcomed to the darkened place Men trade their only born son for life Think there's nothing wrong taking a fee Nothing I can do can change the past Can you live without watching? can you? Why can't you see? The cancer grows it spreads it spreads until there's nothing left You'll never know How good I felt when I thought I was free from all of you There was a time when all I wanted, all I needed was to feel I was the only One, the only one that really mattered And now it's more like I have time to contemplate and watch the way that I Have taken what I wanted, what I really wanted Why can't you see? How good I felt when I thought I was free from all of you Why can't you see? The cancer grows it spreads it spreads until there's nothing left You'll never know How good I felt when I thought I was free from all of you We all die, we all die We all die, we all die We all die, we all die We all die There's nothing for us now We all die, we all die We all die, we all die We all die, we all die We all die!!! Forget the times you broke your promises went against your word The way that see the world and see your life and operate here There ain't no time there ain't nothing there ain't no answers here Sometimes I ask myself these questions when I lay sleeping Then again it's for your own good that you really don't know the truth Just know I'm coming on through, I'm coming on through, I'm coming on through, I'm coming for you. Why can't you see? The cancer grows it spreads it spreads until there's nothing left You'll never know How good I felt when I thought I was free from all of you
I've taken lives, taken more then I can stand so What are you thinking when your watching me What you going to do Where are you now? There's more to destroy Forceful consumption controlling it all To conquer the world While I'm watching There's nothing more They're watching me I came through when you needed said that I could do it Although you deserve nothing When your watching me telling what your really feeling Tell me when you've taught yourself to Think freely When I think of the times we've could of done it And the fact we've mainly done it your way What I see is I see there's no meaning and I believe your hunting me I have seen all I can its only getting worse I cannot live with this Why do we only care for ourselves its madness! All this time wastes away, so Different when I lived here An empty shell, destroys time, is there nothing we can do? We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones I've taken lives, taken more then I can stand so What are you thinking when your watching me Weapons of war What you going to do Where are you now? There's more to destroy Forceful consumption controlling it all To conquer the world While I'm watching There's nothing more They're watching me I, I wont look back Now, I know what's there I can feel your pain I, know now what I am We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones We are the ones the only ones
Heavily medicated Powerless to stop it Desperate twisting thoughts of The horrors of the Ones that owe you something Most think they owe nothing Another shot of sake Tip your glasses Concentrate and focus Forget all you know Appreciate the power Before the hate squad enters Never seemed so clean Sanitary conditions I will conquer all that I know Life has no order Life is life, Gica is Gica. What can we do to bring back some Pride? Now that I know what's going to happen Hate is the fuel that helps me to survive Ominous thoughts from my mind I don't believe I know what happened Double the dose and lie down I will never paint a pretty picture Always rely on myself Never really thought you would learn Sustained assault is my right Turning to the cross never thought I'd fight a Christian Heavily medicated Powerless to stop it Desperate twisting thoughts of The horrors of the Ones that owe you something Most think they owe nothing Another shot of sake Tip your glasses Concentrate and focus Forget all you know Appreciate the power Before the hate squad enters Never seemed so clean Sanitary conditions I will conquer all that I know Life has no order Life is life What can we do to bring back some Pride? Now that I know what's going to happen Hate is the fuel that helps me to survive
Trust me, feel my power Anger, it burns inside My life, of my life Anger, anger So full of rage and hatred Now that I know what's right A call to god Goes unheard, unanswered Lonely world Robs us of your morals and tortures me I can't feel like that Lesson, The worlds deprived More lies, more lies Favours, favours I will give No more favours And I'll watch you decline A call to god Goes unheard, unanswered Lonely world Robs us of your morals and tortures me...
Burn this place Life has gone Resurrect Those that wait Without you Forsaken Open up your mind and look beyond the things you think you know Corruption steams from the true evil of our world and existence A wrecking ball's a started dragging your remains uphill Wisdom is corruption Don't impress upon me simple views To prey on the simple minded Is the height of weakness and immortality? Follow blindly With open eyes The spirit world is lost upon you Open up your mind and look beyond the things you think you know Corruption steams from the true evil of our world and existence A wrecking ball;s a started dragging your remains uphill Wisdom is corruption Don't impress upon me simple views Religion Brainwash me if you dare Has its own special place in hell Religion Erecting statues and reminders of a god long gone Hoping, praying for an easier life than the ones before you Taking chances with your health for an enlightened mind I can't just sit by ignore what I see is going on To prey on the simple minded Is the height of weakness and immortality? Follow blindly With open eyes The spirit world is lost upon you Burn this place Life has gone Resurrect Those that wait Without you Forsaken
More then ever, I have felt True confusion in my life It is so hard to decide Am I insane? Drifting out of my sane mind My enjoyment overrides Have I stolen innocence? I am out of control? Chase the ones That want to be the sunlight This here life will be a lie Take heed of wisdom Clear as the night What I don't see's A warning Never wanted to Never wanted to Release my grip Only had one chance to Watch you loose consciousness Squeeze and drain the life from your outer shell Charged with murder one day I will be More then ever, I have felt True confusion in my life It is so hard to decide Am I insane? Drifting out of my sane mind My enjoyment overrides Have I stolen innocence? I am out of control? We're soaking I don't know You're sulking Seduction Enthralled Chase the ones That want to be the sunlight This here life will be a lie Take heed of wisdom Clear as the night What I don't see's A warning Hollow, I see my thoughts in front of me Consciousness drifts away Confusion overwhelms me How can I stop this? Never wanted to Never wanted to Release my grip Only had one chance to Watch you loose consciousness Squeeze and drain the life from your outer shell Charged with murder one day I will be Hollow, I see my thoughts in front of me Consciousness drifts away Confusion overwhelms me How can I stop this?
Shoot one of them, one of us Another hit in the chest Stare them down Torn between, burying my friends War can be a peaceful place Fallen soldiers everywhere Guns spray the hate towards you Time and time again Throw your pride away It's dispensable Before you pull the trigger on yourself Lost and confused Can't think clearly Thoughts of home are Running through your head No more goodbyes Prepping the trigger and Sending the pain...the pain Forced into so called shame There mission Under...Under, order they obey Throw your pride away It's dispensable Before you pull the trigger on yourself Lost and confused Can't think clearly Thoughts of home are Running through your head Shoot one of them, one of us Another hit in the chest Stare them down Torn between, burying my friends War can be a peaceful place Fallen soldiers everywhere Guns spray the hate towards you Time and time again Caught in the crossfire No more goodbyes Prepping the trigger and Sending the pain...the pain Forced into so called shame There mission Under...Under, order they obey No more goodbyes Sending the pain Forced into so called shame There mission Under...Under, order they obey Caught in the crossfire No more goodbyes Prepping the trigger and Sending the pain...the pain Forced into so called shame There mission Under...Under, order they obey No more goodbyes Sending the pain Forced into so called shame There mission Under...Under, order they obey Throw your pride away It's dispensable Before you pull the trigger on yourself Lost and confused Can't think clearly Thoughts of home are Running through your head
Such a bright eyed young man With the world at my feet Offered such amazing opportunities Bullshit False friendship plagued me through this process Now I'm free I can start again, the reawakening I've, lived the life of a recording artist And been unfulfilled Take this, take that, Drain me until my passion is gone Music was something I did for the love of You took it from me So many fucking sleepless nights and headaches That no one else saw Fuck this bullshit industry I've had more then my fair share Now I'll do it passionately And let myself grow I remember a time all too long ago Music was my love my true meaning I couldn't get enough My waking obsession These times are long behind me Its got me thinking Its got me thinking Its got me thinking And as I sit here writing this I can feel it coming back All the joy I felt creating something from deep inside me Working through those late, late nights With nothing but drive to create This is when I was content This is my therapy I've, lived the life of a recording artist And been unfulfilled Take this, take that, Drain me until my passion is gone Music was something I did for the love of You took it from me So many fucking sleepless nights and headaches That no one else saw Fuck this bullshit industry I've had more then my fair share Now I'll do it passionately And let myself grow I'm free! What a great feeling What ya gonna do? No more bullshit promises You forced me into this I'm free! What a great feeling No more bullshit promises You forced me into this
My discontent Take them all to the darkened courtyard Chopped them into chunks Bag them up and count them Wait until the flesh is contained Feeding your loved once Is a human right People fear infection Don't forget to tag the last one Apply pressure (its) better to end your life Prepare suppertime Conditions dormant We never seem to dine The best's gone off It's angelic, it is Could we be the dead? I see one thing that's missing It's just like Hersey, Hersey Why comply, a sick campaign Millions of men It's just like Hersey, Hersey Imprisoned pride Treated like animals, sever the link of the land The spirit suffers Taking an external rest in turn I've seen the wall What could have been? Am I dead or alive? Mistaken Chores Surely denounced They were grilled while alive I see feeble, feeble souls Feelings (have) stopped now, your savior's gone Imprisoned pride Treated like animals, sever the link of the land The spirit suffers Taking an external rest in turn I've seen the wall What could have been? Am I dead or alive? Mistaken Chores Surely denounced They were grilled while alive
You rushed in, you must be blind To feel insulted by Words from your head That you've derived One chance not to fight, and be free of Violent thoughts and violent acts "I'm important to me" People needing to be noticed Satisfaction's guaranteed Got a point to prove? You're bored and insecure I feel pity Inside sneer Words are silence Faulty pleasures You're now forsaken This could be the last time I tell you Too many years, too many times I walked away Forever's wasted - in a revealing light But when I find you, you'll pray and wish for help You rushed in, you must be blind To feel insulted by Words from your head That you've derived Torn tattered stem Seal the falsified Thoughts that enlighten Your own kind One chance not to fight, and be free of Violent thoughts and violent acts "I'm important to me" People needing to be noticed Satisfaction's guaranteed Got a point to prove? You're bored and insecure I feel pity You rushed in, you must be blind To feel insulted by Words from your head That you've derived Torn tattered stem Seal the falsified Thoughts that enlighten Your own kind
I see a waste of life Taken in the darkness of night I saw all that I needed To let go is never easy All of this time, I have thought that I must have known more than you Now I stand here feeling my loss Feeling the hurt, feeling pain Suppressed feelings never surface Never needed them to show All the sadness, draped upon me Now its time to let it go Burn the decomposing flesh That is left behind me Now that I'm alone I must have to deal with death Fear....The unknown Why take a life so young Burn the decomposing flesh That is left behind me Now that I'm alone I must have to deal with death All of this time, I have thought that I must have known more than you Now I stand here feeling my loss Feeling the hurt, feeling pain Suppressed feelings never surface Never needed them to show All the sadness, draped upon me Now its time to let it go Burn the decomposing flesh That is left behind me Now that I'm alone I must have to deal with death All of this time, I have thought that I must have known more than you Now I stand here feeling my loss Feeling the hurt, feeling pain Suppressed feelings never surface Never needed them to show All the sadness, draped upon me Now its time to let it go
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Watching the mind Destroyed I'm disheartened Resigned to drop dead (It) Begins in my grave Face me, face to face I've lots to tell you I've known for years about this Those who walked away Shaped their minds for nothing Looking, searching for my body parts Viewing you all from a place not so far A small warning I did not sign up for this What have you done? To what was once me Looking, searching for my body parts Viewing you all from a place not so far A small warning I did not sign up for this What have you done? To what was once me Watching the mind Destroyed I'm disheartened Resigned to drop dead (It) Begins in my grave Face me, face to face I've lots to tell you I've known for years about this Those who walked away Shaped their minds for nothing Face me, face to face I've lots to tell you I've known for years about this Those who walked away Shaped their minds for nothing Looking, searching for my body parts Viewing you all from a place not so far A small warning I did not sign up for this What have you done? To...